My Rainbow Angels

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Top photos are Benji (first photo is Benji to the left of Karma), and below are pictures of Tigger. These are two of my boys that I euthanized on June 21, 2013 due to both being too ill to have a quality of life. This Blog would not be my place if my boys were not known. Tigger was my “super glue to my Heart” cat and Benji was my “Love-boy” cat. I pay a very high price for taking care of special needs cats. Once this decision was made, and I went through with it, this event just about put me 6 feet under. Some have seen pictures of me from this time and they can attest I looked old. I miss these boys yet, I have great comfort in my Heart knowing they are still with me, AND they are fully healed.

Benjamin was 8 years old who succumbed to renal disease and Tigger was 9 years old, whose mind literally broke when he could no longer hang on. Both these boys were abused and sorely neglected as kittens, especially Tigger.

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October 1, 2015  Molly, age 11, with Mommy

Earlier today, Molly went to the Angels.  She lost her battle with CHF and won Everlasting Life.

As I was going about my morning routine this morning, I heard Molly scream. In running to her I saw her aggressively and desperately licking her left leg.  Not knowing what was going on, I rushed to pick her up and it was in that moment I knew something was very very wrong.

Molly’s back legs were paralyzed.  At the moment she screamed she threw a clot which caused her hind quarters to become paralyzed.  Yelling for my husband to come down from the second floor, I sobbed, “Call our Vet now!  We must take Molly in right now to walk the Path of Mercy.”

We flew into action.  Arrangements were made, we both got dressed, me keeping very close eyes on Molly.  Sobbing, weeping, in shock … but knowing what we had to do I did not look back.  Wrapping her in a towel and her afghan, we flew to our Vet’s office, with me so concerned that the paralysis would move up her spine to her lungs.  Thank God that never happened.

This picture was taken by my husband just after Molly was sedated with a combination pain medication and anxiety medication, comparable to what we humans are given prior to anesthesia.  It was then I picked her up again, holding her ever so close, as I wept and whispered in her ear, “Molly, Love is forever.  It is forever and someday we will again all be together.  I Love you, Baby Girl, with my whole Heart and Soul.”

When the time came to release her to Source, I tilted Molly’s head ever so gently so she could see my eyes as I held her close in my arms, with her head directly next to my Heart.  She looked deep into my eyes with such Complete Love so profound I will never ever forget it.  And as I saw her Spirit fly away, her transition was the most Peaceful, Gentle, Loving Transition I have ever experienced.

Molly is now free of her suffering.

Photography/ “Molly Is Free” 2015©AmyRose
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I am not able to tell you the pain that my Heart holds right now. Even though our Prinny is finally pain free, my humanness misses her with every fiber of my being.

Prinny was so sick the entire time she graced her presence with us. She appeared on October 16, 2009 in our backyard, beat up, covered with mites, filthy, half her tail lifeless, weak, starving, extremely sick, and unable to pass urine. When we brought her in to the Vet we were seeing at that time, we were advised to put her to sleep.

Instead we opted to fight with her. We believed and still do that Prinny is the spirit of our third cat, Princess, returned to us. It was in her mannerisms, her “energy”, and even though this cat was a “male” and looked totally different from Princess, nothing could convince us otherwise that this male cat was truly our Princess. She evidently was not finished with what she had come here for.

To make a very long story short, our cat Prinny was FIV+ with multiple problems that needed addressing every single day she was with us. We managed to bring her back to life and as near as possible a state of health that she was capable of having. She was constant care. Towards the end of her life, she was diagnosed with a tumor in her right ear, which turned out to be cancerous. This tumor effected her brain, her eye sight, her balance, and then began to slowly strangulate her.

When I finally convinced my husband we could no longer help her, the decision was made to walk the Path of Mercy. That last trip to our Vet just about broke both of us and for this reason and more, we are now exploring in-home euthanasia for the rest of our babies.

Prinny was estimated to be eight years old when she first came to us. We made up a birthday for her. Prinny came into this world on July 18, 2000 and left this world on May 16, 2016. Rest in Peace, baby girl. Mommy Loves you with all of Her Heart and Soul. We will be together again, I promise you.

Photography/ “Prinny” 2016©AmyRose
@www.herladypinkrose.wordpress.com
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65 thoughts on “My Rainbow Angels

  1. So poignantly lovely. Thank you for caring for little babies in need. Thank you for your strength in knowing when it’s time for their sakes to release them from pain. Love you, Amy. xox, Lin

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    1. That decision is THE most difficult for me to make, even knowing there is no death. I Love these animals so dearly, that the letting go knowing I will no longer BE with them in this dimension……that just about does me in. I Love you, too, Lin. xxoo, Amy

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  2. Unfortunately, I can relate when it comes those times when it is necessary to release our little ones, but still we absolutely go on rescuing. It’s not easy and usually takes my heart quite a long time to recover. But, as our new selves–when we get the hang of it, won’t we be able to travel back and forth in “no time” to visit energetically???

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  3. And suddenly all the painful feelings flood back from when my feline friend stepped out a few years ago.. He had been with me for half of my life, and I released years and years of repressed emotions over it and after.. The release of crying felt extremely therapeutic, so I went with it for a while.. I’m sure it helped prepare me for some of what followed in my life.:)

    Thank you for sharing Amy!! I have been touched by the love you show for all life.
    Bless your heart,
    Adam

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    1. Adam, when I read words like yours, it makes the impossible days bearable. I too have much hurt in my heart knowing that these precious cats would still be with me today if their beginnings had been different.

      My goal is to be an example of Love, Adam, in all I do. There are days I am so discouraged for this world just will not embrace Love. Sometimes I wonder what I am doing here on a planet that is certainly not home to me.

      Thank you for being here at Petals Unfolding. I am truly sorry I could not help you in your other matter. I hope by now you found who you were looking for. With Much Love, Amy

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  4. I know of peopel who do, and for this reason, is why I breathe. I push pride aside and I stand in the way of anyone who does not treat animals right. The little I do seems at times, just not enough. I have been a living example for years to certain people and you would think something of what I stand for, would rub off. No. What does it take for people to see that animals are precious and they deserve the highest quality of care? That goes for the wild animals as well. People cannot even respect people…..much less animals.

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    1. This was a tough loss, Cindy. I still to this day curl up in a ball, and cry my eyes out. I made the decision I did for the highest best of all involved. Not only these two. When one becomes responsible for another’s life, I cannot tell you how deep that responsibility goes. xxoo Amy

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    1. Oh, Laura, I am SO sorry! My Tigger and Benji have been gone now for about 8 months, and no the pain is not as acute, but I miss them so much. Sending you BIG (((HUGS))) from one who really understands!!! Love, Amy 😇 💕 💞

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      1. You are in my heart, Laura. I really know that fresh pain. I look at my other guys and I cannot even go to “that place”. It just about destroys me. Hang in there. Immersing yourself in something you really love, helps. But don’t forget to cry too. That is needed as well. Love, Amy

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    1. Furbies are my kids too. Not too many people “get that” but man, YOU DO!!! Thank you! Even to this day, I still cry over the loss of those who no longer are in my life. Bless you! Love, Amy

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  5. Thank you for following me! I’m so glad you found me ’cause I would have missed so many nice post and beautiful kitty cats 😉
    Nice meeting you,
    Diana

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    1. Thank you, Diana!!! I don’t post a lot of my cats on my blog. It is mostly my flowers and nature. People who come to my blog tend to gravitate to flowers and nature NOT cats, so even though I have so many gorgeous cats, I don’t post a lot of their pics. Again, that may change. Bless you! Love, Amy

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  6. Thank you kindly for the follow, Amy! Sorry for your losses, I know what it’s like to lose… Knowing they are at peace, however, eases the mind a tad.

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    1. Thank you, Sabby. It still hurts to this day. Yet, I know the best was done for they were really suffering. I promised to help them IF that day ever came along, and it did. (((HUGS))) Amy

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    1. I know, Anarette. I know. My heart just twists with compassion not only with those I take care of within our home, but others outside as well. What people do to animals is so wrong. In fact, I am caring for kicked out cats who now live in a barn. How people can see an animal as less then precious is beyond my thinking. Bless you for your words of encouragement! Love, Amy

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  7. Such a cute and adorable cat family,dear Amy ! They look so happy and relaxed thanks to your care and love ! Nice to meet them ; Please give them all a big hug !
    Doda , ((( hugs ))) and love ~~~♥ xxx

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    1. Thank you and Bless you, Holly. It is because of one of these precious babies, I am seriously exhausted after giving it my all to save his leg and life. I did it with the help of my hubs. Now he and I recoup. We had the check up at the Vet today and everyone was agog at how good his paw looked, not believing what I did with it. I am showing medicine there are alternatives ways to healing then chopping off limbs. (((HUGS))) Amy

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      1. You know how much I love animals, I am so grateful when I find people like you who care so much. Unfortunately there are too many who mistreat these little innocents.
        xx,
        Holly

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      2. I know, Holly, I know. One of my neighbor’s do, and I live here to make sure they are at least fed and know that they are loved. When I see these cats living in a filthy barn my Heart just breaks. They are so dirty and I know how much cats love to be clean. The insensitivy of people towards animals really riles me at times. You would think my example would rub off, but I am only seen as strange. Hmmmm…….It is not I who is the strange one. (((HUGS))) for Loving these animals as I do, Holly!!!! xx Amy

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      3. It’s amazing how these creatures love us unconditionally, even when they are abused they will still be faithful to their master. I infuriates me to see them abused. Well , we can only do so much,
        but it makes me feel helpless when I see them suffering. Love and hugs!!

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      4. I feel the same way, Holly. I would just love to shake people to wake them up, but even that wouldn’t help. I can only do what I can, and that I do. As I am sure you do too!!! This world infuriates me period how awful people act! (((HUGS))) Amy

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  8. That’s the way to remember our beloved furry companions; it’s so much easier on the heart than to think they are dead.
    Thanks for the reminder because I fully believe that I will see my beloved furry friends when I cross over to the other side too.

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    1. Genie, I am SO glad you posted so I could talk to you. What you post on your blog moves my Heart SO much. The little boy today had me in tears. Your photos have so much meaning, and I pray, really pray, people stop just thinking of themselves and to start helping those that really need help. And yes, remembering my boys like this is the only way I can do it. Otherwise I would not be able to go on. I have so many others to take care of who need my full attention every day. Yes, I mourned but then I just had to go on. Believe me I still have my days that the pain is almost unbearable. There is no death in reality. We really just go on. It is those who are left behind that death is so hard on. Peace, my friend. Your work shows your Heart, and to me, it is a privilege to know of you. Love, Amy

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  9. wow – when i clicked on the title rainbow boys – I did not expect cats. actually – I am not sure what I expected – but this was delightful – and how awesome that they touched your life like this – and that you cared for them – ❤ – we have never had cats – only dogs – (my husband and older son are allergic) but I have a few friends that talk about the special bond that can only come with feline friends – and this post reminded me of that.

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    1. There is a saying when an animal/pet dies. They go to the Rainbow Bridge and there they play in fields with complete JOY waiting for their “owner”. Hence, Rainbow Boys. My cats are attached to my Heart in a way I am not able to describe. When it is time for them to leave it just about destroys me. To make the decision to put down 2 young cats due to disease, is a decision I wouldn’t wish on anyone. I still to this day, ache for them. xx Amy

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  10. Beautiful cats. I had a beautiful Ragdoll cat who had FIV. We were lucky to have six years with him after we adopted him from the shelter. He would have lived his life out in a cage had he not been adopted. We brought other a lot of happiness.

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    1. I have 2 FIV+, my friend, and one really struggles at times. He is 5 years old and the other one, believe it or not, is 15. If you only had my eyes right now, I have 5 of my cats glued to my sliding screen door watching a huge flock of grackles getting ready to fly. You should here them. What glorious music!!!! Love, Amy ❤

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    1. Tiggers are special. Mine is now an Angel in another form. Actually I take that back. He returned and is now one of the barn cats next door. He still is learning Lessons he did not get when he was with me indoors. I’m working with him … 🙂

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  11. Such beautiful kitten friends you’ve had! I’ve had some, too. My 17 year old Pupkin passed in the spring. It is hard, especially when one has such a loving heart as yours. _Resa xo

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  12. I have loved and released five precious dogs and I truly feel your ache and also your belief that they are now safe and pain free and that we will be together again, playing and laughing and loving. I held each one and looked in their eyes too, whispering my love into their ears as they passed. It hurt so bad, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
    My dogs have all been rescues and yes, we pay the price for loving the babies who had a rough start, but the blessings, as you know, are beyond belief.
    I have been caught up in moving and settling in and I have missed visiting your blog. I love the new format and sweet Amy, I love you. Hugs, Jeanne Marie

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  13. I am sorry I missed this dear sweet Amy Rose. I need to explain what divine guidance brought me from there to here and why I must comment here after being so late a friend. And to me this travel is definitely of the soul deepening source. The past month or so my Jack Russell Terrior-ist Katy has been having sporadic epileptic seizures of some sort and I recalled the post you put up about a homeopathic treatment for cats and thought I’d take a peek back to see if it would help. I see now it’s not for the same malady, but oddly, I’ve been reading a book, a story, about assisted compassionate suicide. (You Before Me, if curious). I’ve struggled mightily with the novel, starting out sanctimoniously righteous, but as the pages turned, the characters filled my heart and my views turned as they became more than just some black and white words on a page. I’ve not finished the book, so I know not what I will feel at the end, but right now, I feel pain at your loss but happiness the little one is free to chase butterflies and climb the curtains of the heavens. Sometimes peace is the only answer. I’ve been more absent than present a friend of late, wading through my own day to day, and wanted to tell you (but comments were closed) that your photos with the S-6 are da-bomb, I actually have put my Nikon away I myself love my Samsung Edge so much. (I highly recommend buying the “mophie” protective case, if you can, it is a case with a built in charger). Anyway, I digress, in real Cao form, I may seem away, but I am always here drawing comfort from your words of encouragement and your soul deep photography. Thank you my friend. Love you, Cao

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    1. Dearest Cao, I have tears in my eyes, for it has been so long since we spoke. My Heart so goes out to you with what you are going through for I of anyone, knows the pain. I could not bring myself to make that final decision for Molly, for once that decision is made that’s it. I struggled as I watched her agonizingly taking breaths. I did everything I knew to do to make her comfortable for the vet that I WAS working with refused to help me by giving Molly comfort in her last days. Cao, she stroked out, throwing a clot, becoming paralyzed in her back legs and lost bladder control. Dear God, the tears. This hurts. I flew into action and got her to our NEW vet who with great gentleness and care, brought her suffering to an end. I have made decisions with other cats of mine regarding euthanasia, but with Molly, who was just SO tied to me, I could not bring myself to do it. Her final months were a nightmare … I barely left the house and I just was so frozen as I watched her breathe, praying for relief for her. Her passing is a Blessing, believe me, but damn! It hurts like hell. My prayers will be with you. Our animals tend to hide their pain so well, yet I have come to know the signs. Molly did in fact give me the “look” about 2 weeks before she threw the clot, yet she seemed to rally back, and so I continued doing everything I could to make her comfortable, failing miserably.
      And about the cameras …. Cao, it has been such a JOY to carry this light nothing compared to approximately 30 pounds of equipment when I go on my more involved shoots, and yes, I too have been using my Samsung more and more. No it does not get the effects I can get with my Canon, but that being said, I have not gone into the “pro settings” yet of my Samsung to see what I can do. I am just enjoying for now the fact I can push a button and that’s it. I LOVE the panorama setting. That is SO cool!!! And as for macro … again my Canon I prefer. This winter I plan on getting snow shows to really get out in heavy forests, and HAD been thinking of putting my backpack on with my camera equipment but I am rethinking things. I need to get an anti-glare covering for mine. In the sun, I cannot see the face of the camera to see what I am shooting at.
      It was so GOOD to interact with you. Please take care of yourself, and do your best with Katie. My Karma seems to have seizure type moments and I have been actually having to feed him due to him loosing so much weight and not eating properly. I’ve been giving him supplements: (it may seem a lot but they are helping) Cosequin, Petwelling Being: 1. Agile Joints 2. Old Friend, Dr. Reckeweg BC-25, and Planet Ayurveda Rencure. He is 16 and slowly going down. IF you decide to use any of these products please feel free to email me because with some of these companies there are tricks to getting the products faster. I’ve learned. His symptoms are decreased appetite with seemingly tummy issues, jerk like seizures, I believe either liver or kidneys are involved, and arthritis. I hope this helps you. Traditional medicine is not always the way to go. I’ve found that out too, the hard way.
      Sending Much Love to you and (((HUGS))) Amy ❤

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  14. This brought us to tears, Amy. We share your pain 😦 It is so hard to let go, even if we know that they are still around. Your furrbabies were beautiful and they had a beautiful mommy who took care of them… forever. Soft Pawkisses ❤ ❤

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    1. Thank you ever so kindly. It is hard for me to go to this page for I carry this pain in my Heart no matter how much time goes by. I Love my babies, always will, and in order to help my babies that are still here, I must focus on them. Bless you for your caring words. I know oh so very well how much your Heart is hurting now. Love, Amy ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. To witness our BeLoved babies suffer and then go, is one of the hardest if not THE hardest aspects of caring for animals. With Molly I was facing not only a nightmare with her but a nightmare with vet medicine. I learned from out of that NOT to give one inch for the care I want for my babies. I know they are all still with us and I laugh at times because I say no wonder this house is so crowded! I saw a flash of white just a few days ago on our stairs and immediately knew it was Molly. And I smiled.
      I truly am sorry for your loss. I understand completely the heartache and grief invovled. BIG (((HUGS))) ❤

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      1. It was the first time I ever went thru it. We had outdoor cats when the kids were little and they just ran off. Each of them woke me at 3am to say goodbye. And, yes, they visit! Thanks for the kinds words – still kills me to think about them.

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      2. I know, Debra. I know. IF I allowed my sadnes to consume me I would not be able to care for all those who are still on this side of the veil. I hope soon you will be able to think of them with happiness. I know they would want you to. ❤

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