Wounded Child

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    1. I’m more then good, Dan. I’ve learned to adjust and I know a day shall come that again I will be able to go where I like to go. In the meantime, I am recreating my life within the parameters I have been given. Thank you for your concern. You are very fortunate you have no issues wearing a mask. Many of us are not so fortunate. Have a great day!! xo

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      1. I don’t enjoy wearing a mask, but it’s is required, and the latest thinking is that it helps the person wearing it even beyond decreasing the spread. I’ll hang onto that thought.

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      2. We all have to do what is best for us until the madness is over. For me that means staying at home most of the time. Once I did attempt to wear a mask and for three days afterwards I went through respiratory agony. I’ll stick to my face shield when I do go out. Have a great evening.

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      3. The face shield seems like a good alternative. I wear those during certain operations in my hop. I do not like them, so if those were required, I’d have a problem. We have to do what works for us and our situation.

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  1. I really feel for you and your siblings. The petty dictators love abusing people, and if are you and your siblings are suffering, then there are hundreds of thousands more suffering from the same issues because of the cohort you are in. In New Mexico, retail stores face huge fines for allowing people to go in without masks. I only wear a mask to go into stores. I’m contrary. I’ve always had issues with the government’s petty rulemaking, and I think it’s stupid to wear a mask outside when you are not near other people. Hang in there.

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    1. For the reasons you’ve stated, is why I wrote this post, Tim. I KNOW too many are suffering but no one is talking about. Or so it seems. I will NOT wear a mask outside. That is ridiculous! Yes there are huge fines here as well (illegal to do!) if these businesses allow people to go in without masks. I am so relieved I can wear a face shield and even with that I know it is senseless for it is worthless against any microbe in the air. We’ve always lived with microbes in the air and it is actually healthy for us to exchange in our own bodies foreign microbes to help keep our immune systems strong. But what do I know? Government officials are running away with the abuse of power. The only way this is going to cease is for people to realize this. I’m doing my best in a really deplorable situation. You take care!! xo

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  2. i just wanted to say that i hear you and that you are not alone. I also wanted to acknowledge your husband for standing by your side. It is good that you have some one to do those chores for you as so many of do not.
    Keep your self safe and healthy in the way you need to do it. Courage and love to you.

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    1. I know I am not alone, Jacquie. That is why I wrote this post. Yes my Husband is very protective of me and he knows I am not able to wear a mask. He too suffers from PTSD yet he is strong enough to wear a mask when he goes into these stores. I am staying safe and healthy most important of all. I’m in the process of rebuilding my life within a very deplorable situation. It takes courage to understand the depths of our wounded child within and to act in order to bring no harm to ourselves. Much love to you!! Hang in there!!! (((HUGS)))!! xo

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  3. Amen Amy! I hear you, many thousands and thousands of people have suffered trauma and trigger this trauma when told to put something over their face. I’m not wearing a mask either – tried once because I couldn’t get my eyes checked without it. I got so hot. Thank God it was for a short time. Glad you are writing about it because I’m sure most people can relate. I am also feeling strongly that it’s the young men who need to shed the masks, stop hiding and cowering and be men – face the establishment and tell them what for!!! What’s happened to masculine strength and fortitude in men? Women have taken it this far – It’s time for the men to take their place as leaders. Beautiful photos too – vast and the effects are right on!! Much love and hugs!! Donna

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    1. I so appreciate you, Donna. Here in NYS we do not have the option of not wearing a mask unless that is, we find businesses who have retained compassion within their hearts. These modern day Gestapo tactics at these stores are shocking to say the least. Despite me being exempt according to the Executive Order, it is being demanded I wear a mask. How, I ask can businesses pick and choose what they are going to put into practice from an Executive Order? I have completely disconnected from this insanity and this inhumane treatment of people. I am SO grateful to my husband who elects to go everywhere where masks are “mandated”.
      I agree with you about the men. Totally. Where are they? Why are they hiding behind skirts, so to speak? Perhaps because this is the time of the Divine Feminine and that is why the majority of those who are pushing back are women. Men on the whole are very uncomfortable with their feminine sides ….. and that is exactly what it takes these days to stand strong!! Thank you about my pictures. I experimented last evening with a technique I’ve not used before. I worked very carefully to create the effect that exactly matches what I wrote in my post. Bless you for the confirmation that I succeeded. And yes …. wide open spaces were calling me yesterday. Such FREEDOM!! Much love to you, dear friend!! xo

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  4. Some practice tolerance when it’s expedient to do so. Then, turn into monsters as they shame people who choose to live life on their own terms. Your photos remind us that there is more to life than a sheet of fabric that hides our smiles. Keep on keeping on, Amy. ❤

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    1. The broiling soup that is boiling over I have detached from, Rob. The display of hatred and putrid intolerance just mirrors the inner condition of so many people’s souls. This has no-thing to do with me cuz I have done the inner work for years and continue to do so. So, I quietly wait for the majority to catch up in awareness and self-health. Loved what you said about my photos. I tried a new technique last evening working deliberately to mirror what I said in my post to what you see in those pictures. Thank you for the feedback!! You keep on keeping on too, Rob! All of us who know who to shine are so needed today to continue to do so!! Much love and laughter to you!! xo

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  5. I completely agree with you Amy, the first thing in life is self-healing and once we are healed then we can think about others too. Nice to be occupied and do what you like. Lovely and awesome photographs and your post said it so loudly how millions have suffered from trauma, rape, poverty and what not. Very, very sad. Let us all pray for them that God gives them strength and grace to move on in their lives.

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    1. Very thought provoking comment, Kamal. Thank you for being so kind and loving. I put this post together yesterday because all the pieces of the puzzle fell together regarding what really is going on with most people today. How desperately we need healing in this world BUT in order for that to happen, first we have to heal ourselves. I have been praying for those millions who are suffering today, and not only related to the masks. It’s crushing to know how people have been literally thrown aside carelessly for the continued violence and criminal activity seen prominently in today’s societies. I see bright spots of hope in different countries where people are coming awake and standing on strength and conviction that what is being forced upon this globe, must cease. God bless you for who you are!! Much love to you this day! xo

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      1. Yes so true and profound feedback from you too dear Amy. Let us all pray for all these deprived and poor souls who are having such difficult times. God and his mercy is on all of us and he knows what he is doing. You are always welcome dear. Love and light to you too and to each and every soul in need.

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  6. There is so much truth to your words Amy, for me it comes down to faith. I to was held down by man and his thoughts on how woman should be treated through out my younger years. It took a life time for me to reach the place where I am at now. I was given my strength back, especially as a woman. I know where I come from and I know where I am going. And I do not bow down to the world and their loss in faith. A person has more germs on their hands and skin then they do coming out of their mouths. Our society has become all about showing off, who can buy the biggest thing and the fanciest house and dress it up with what they see on TV. For me that is not what life is about. And I have nothing against those that do that. But what I remember the most in times like this, is the stories my Grandmother told us on how they had to live growing up. How excited she was to get a new dress made out of a potato sack. How important it was to just help your neighbors and your family. And they survived knowing the meaning of giving. There will always be diseases in the world, there will always be those who think they can rule over you. But the truth is, we all leave this world the same way we came into it. Not one person out there is more important than the next one.
    Faith does not require obedience. Only man requires obedience to deities. I know in my heart the Truth, The One

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    1. For me as well, Sandra, it comes down to faith. As I told one of my neighbors who recently said, “I wish I had faith like yours.”, that I will not let go of my faith, I just won’t. As for your past, truly, dear friend, I HUG you for I know this pain too. I do not speak much of my nightmare past for to do so would just empower that past to consume me. I have faced the demons, forgiven, accepted, and healed those wounds to the best of my ability and most importantly I have learned to not repeat those patterns in my present day life. I can and will say that because of our similar pasts, they have made us stronger, wiser, more compassionate, and developed a faith deep within our hearts not only when it comes to God but with ourselves as well. I know you have learned to love yourself and to forgive those who have trespassed against you. I know this by just observing what you post and what I “feel” when our paths cross.
      Since a child money did not matter to me. I did not obsess about it and just flowed through life knowing that somehow I would always have enough. And I have. Yes Hubby and I built our dream house and yes today due to both of us working very hard for decades, we are comfortable today. Yes I have very expensive camera equipment and my attitude towards that is gratitude that I have the ability to afford that which is my dream. But does money and “more and bigger” consume me? NO! I don’t even think that way. This world at large for too long has operated upon those selfish principals and that is what among other things, is coming crashing down. I want nothing to do with anything that is happening “out there”. I know where my life is and what it is about and no-thing or no one will take that from me.
      Like you I am fearless. This obsession regarding germs is infantile. And that’s the truth. We’ve always lived with germs, it is a fact of life on this planet. What is being witnessed is a mirroring of the sickness so many carry around with them from years of programming that insists money is god. Sorry. Wrong there again. Faith like you stated does not require obedience …. I was instructed many years ago to ONLY listen to my heart and my Inner Guidance, the way God speaks to me. I admit I fell when this nightmare began and reverted back to listening to man until the day I realized how that only instigated extreme stress and anxiety. No thank you! I returned to where I belong … in God’s world. I know in my heart too, the Truth, the One. With that, I am confident that God always has my back as well as those I love whose hearts are His.
      Your comment warranted an immediate response from me. I am SO grateful that people like you exist in this world and it is those of us who will lead the way. We are doing so already, Sandra. Just by living by example and showing what we are on our blogs, we are showing all who view what living according to God looks like. God bless you!!! (((HUGS))) xo

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      1. Yes, you and I and many others are proof that we persevered through faith, not on our own merits. We were not given life to sit on our hands and not enjoy the abundance of beauty that surrounds us. We are created to love, laugh and enjoy the fruit of our labors as we choose to. Is a chocolate cream pie bad for us, well it is not the best thing probably. But if I want to enjoy the wonderful flavor of something so delicious to me I certainly will. We are only here on this beautiful earth for such a short time. I want to spend my time laughing, living, loving and sharing the gift He gave to me of photography, like you. We share His creation, and I thoroughly enjoy doing it and will continue to until I can not. There is a whole new world in front of you Amy, I plan to embrace it with a smile on my face and laughter in my heart. And to help any that I can, His will be done.

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      2. Sandra, there has been a whole new world in front of me ever since I chose to create my world when it was smashed in 1993. This is my second round of creating my life with an added bonus to be extremely careful of who I listen to in this world. I thought I had learned that lesson. Evidently not well enough. His Will is done every day with me. To actually be experiencing this bliss and light within a world gone mad, brings an even sweeter sensation to my being. Our conversations lately have been such a blessing to me, Sandra. Thank you so much. (((HUGS)))!! xo

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      3. Our conversations are truly a blessing. It warms my heart to hear you speak of finding your way back. He never said it was going to be easy. But it is about the journey, the end will always be there. And a glorious moment that will be. There is much work to be done Amy, critters to photograph and gardens to tend to. Smile and laugh always Amy.

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  7. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. I did not know that people might be finding it so difficult to wear a mask . In future whenever I see a person without a mask I will definitely not judge them. Your photos are beautiful. Regards

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    1. Thank YOU for listening to what I have to say, Lakshmi. See how vitally important communication is and how tolerance of others’ truths brings with it understanding? Yes there are many of us who have difficultly wearing a mask. I fall into the older then 60 age group and just take my word for it, along with my problems, age plays a huge factor in the inability of wearing a mask. It just isn’t possible. How many elderly have you seen walking around with masks on? I bet not too many! Now that you have been educated a bit, bless you for being less judgmental when you see someone without a mask on. Bless you! And another thank you on my photography. I share the passion of my heart …. photography. Much love and peace to you this day!! xo

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  8. Hi dear Amy.. I feel your story, and I feel your wounds.. And like you all during the lock down it has been my husband who has gone out done the shopping, not that I am not capable I am, But he said it didn’t bother him to wear a mask… Even though in the beginning no one was wearing them
    or made to wear them in shops here in the UK…. But he wore one because of his age and the initial narrative from the media saying how dangerous it was.. I went to shops without wearing a mask like many more here in the UK did..
    Then on the 24th July our After months of having the virus and after flattening the “Curve!” And the figures being much less than predicted and less if one researches than a bad year of flu, Our government made it mandatory to wear them in shops banks etc…
    I couldn’t fathom why this would spark within me such panic, I wrote a post about it, [Following Our Hearts~ And Intuition. in a True story outlining the triggered memory of a woman long ago who was suppressed, and gagged.. Myself…

    All of my life I have felt a deep wound, and our childhoods also a reflection of that deep wound we each carry Amy.. Which is something we have had to deal with..

    Imagine now during such lockdowns, within such dysfunctional family units the amount of trauma now being created among children and spouses.. Along side separation, masks, fear of dying and being told not to contact family members..
    I know from our own perspective how deeply I missed seeing my granddaughter and she us… Coupled together with not being allowed to play with friends..
    Just what sort of a wounded child are we now creating for our future time line?? It doesn’t bare thinking about Amy.

    So I downloaded an exemption badge created by our government on its own website… And pinned it to myself, and braved the shops and banks…
    And It was accepted in all the places I went here in the UK though I did get some looks!!… Should it not.. then I will not frequent their establishment..
    I am a Sovereign Human BEing, whose right is to breathe…. And I cannot breath because of panic wearing a mask.. and so I stand by you dear Amy…

    A beautiful courageous post Amy, there are many who are standing in their Sovereign Light… For we see deeper than most…
    Beautiful images that spoke to me throughout your narrative Amy

    Much love dear friend ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. Thank you for acknowledging my courage, Sue. I see it as standing on integrity and morality. I also think you may have missed the part where I stated due to the asthma this body displays, I cannot breathe. The one and only time I did consent to wear a mask I suffered three days of respiratory agony. On top of the issues I have with my childhood, I know my limitations and just am not willing to endanger my health in any way. We also here in the states do not have any kind of anything we can pin on our shirts that explain we are medically exempt from masks. Despite the fact I am exempt, businesses do NOT care and are demanding I wear one. I won’t. When I do go to my library, another place that refuses me entry without a mask on, I wear a face shield. The businesses I can boycott who do not honor my medical condition, I do.
      I also thank you on my photography. I experimented with a new technique working very hard to reflect my words in this post to be seen in my images. Oh yes we are Sovereign Beings ….. only we can insist to embrace that truth. Much love to you, Sue!! xo

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      1. “Imagine now during such lockdowns, within such dysfunctional family units the amount of trauma now being created among children and spouses.. Along side separation, masks, fear of dying and being told not to contact family members..
        I know from our own perspective how deeply I missed seeing my granddaughter and she us… Coupled together with not being allowed to play with friends..
        Just what sort of a wounded child are we now creating for our future time line?? It doesn’t bare thinking about Amy.”
        Your words, Sue, are powerful and bears much thinking about. The infinite ramifications of the fear, the lockdowns, the masks, the violence, the hatred will be seen in so many horrible ways especially our young people. Like you said, …. it doesn’t bare thinking for I when I do think about it I get SO overwhelmed!!

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    1. It certainly is a sad state of affairs when our health concerns no longer matter …. only one virus matters. This madness will cease when the masses stand up and say ENOUGH. And as for hubby, he’s so protective of me and he knows how badly masks effect me. Hope you had a great day today and sending you much love! xo

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  9. I agree…there are so many who feel suffocated by the masks…people got to understand…even I and my daughter do not like to wear the mask during my walks…self healing is the first step…

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    1. Krish, I’m led to ask you what is it that you arnd your daughter are afraid of outside that is allowing yourselves to deny both of you of the right to breathe freely? I don’t understand. I’ve been outside since March ever since this debacle began. I did not wear a mask. I did not get sick. I had no fear. I also know as an RN that it is plain silly to wear a mask outdoors. I happen to live in NYS, the state of all the states in the USA with the highest number of deaths. That being said, if I’m not afraid to freely walk outside without a mask on, why are you? I don’t understand the logistics of this type of thinking. Is someone telling you it’s not safe to not wear a mask outside? If they are, they are lying. Honey, please think about what you are doing in actuality. Outside is where we gain our strength for our immunity between the fresh air, the delight of being with Nature, and our Sun. That and actually being around people is another way we were made to keep our immune systems strong. So much love to you and your daughter! xo

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      1. BIG SMILE. GOOD FOR YOU! There is nothing to be afraid of period. Sorry if I misunderstood. I thought you told me you do wear masks outside. I see people doing this and I cringe. OMG! To deny ourselves of fresh air? NO! So proud of you for not falling for the lies. (((HUGS))) xo

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  10. Glad your standing in your truth Amy, these photo’s are beautiful. And also glad you have ‘seen’ the truth of that trigger in your heart. Once seen for what it is you begin that road of understanding and it loses its power over you. You have changed it by changing how you see it and your attitude towards it will now set you free ❤️
    Much love and light in your world dear lady. May the animals, the tree’s and most of all, your heart enjoy its new found freedom 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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    1. In seeing the trigger, Mark, and the “why” behind it, brought empowerment. I have been so vehemently against masks for “other” then my own personal reasons but when this puzzle popped into place, I felt blown wide open. As my brother stated “I just won’t conform.”. That too straight out of our childhood where we were forced to conform in very unhealthy and inhumane ways. When someone lives through that, believe me, no one will tell that person how to live his or her life. I heard shock in my brother’s voice …. he had NO clue what it’s been like having these horrid mask mandates. Suddenly his governor slapped his state with a mask mandate so for the first time he is being exposed to it. It shocks the soul, Mark. It really does. I still after months of mandates still am not able to tolerate wearing a mask or seeing someone else wearing one. And for those out there forcing people to wear a mask who have respiratory problems to begin with …. SHAME ON THEM!!! I could go on a long time about this subject. Due to censorship however, for the main part I’ve kept quiet. Many I know feel the same way I do. There is coming a tipping point when the majority finally WAKE UP and say NO! In the meantime I do what I can to keep myself healthy.
      Much love and light to you, dear friend. With every day it seems lately comes with it a bit more sense of freedom. It’s exhilarating!! (((HUGS)))!! xo

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  11. So much multi-layered symbolism in what we are all going through. I know you’ve been through a lot, but I am so pleased that you have the courage to reflect upon why you feel the way you do and to uncover your truth. I wish you much continued healing, dearest Amy.

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    1. Oh yes I so agree, Julie. Multi=layered symbolism all over the place if we have but eyes to see and ears to hear. I honestly don’t think it so much as courage any more but instead integrity and morality. Just doing what is the right thing to do and knowing it deep within my heart. To be aware of the triggers that still lay within me and have the power to do something positive about them is exhilarating. I’ve been so hurt in my life on this earth that now I not only refuse to hurt me but I will not tolerate others hurting me either. Thank you for your well wishes. I in turn wish the very same for you!! (((HUGS)))! xo

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  12. You are one of the strongest and bravest women I know! Kudos to you for standing your ground!! You know that we are of like mind when it comes to these masks so I hope this will be over soon. It really is getting bad. I think it has divided us more than the election would…maybe that’s the point? Maybe when this is all over I will make a drive your way…before the city traffic lol? When we can actually have a cup of coffee or tea without worries…probably next year..after the threat of lake effect snow. Hang in there my friend and keep creating the magic you do..<3

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    1. Zia, my life has formed me into who I am today. What with these last few months and how it has effected me, my strength, my integrity, my conviction in myself, have risen to great heights. When a person survives what I did, you either become a victim for the rest of your life or a survivor for the rest of your life. I have chosen to be a survivor.
      These masks yes have become incredibly difficult. To not have my medical condition honored despite the Executive Order that excuses me is inhumane and unconstitutional. I’m done fighting, Zia. The pushback is too severe and it takes so much out of me to go up against such harsh treatment. The face shield I can breathe while wearing, quietly doing my “light work magic” as I go along. I told my sister one way I am handling this is to make sure I wear bright lipstick to announce to everyone YES you can see MY smile. God help me …. smiles are desperately needed in today’s world and yes I am contributing to them!
      I would love to meet some day. It brings such peace of mind to me knowing there are those in this world who are not blindly following mandates that need not even exist. My FAITH tells me TRUTH always overcomes and some day when the TRUTH is known, the general shock waves will be massive. You hang in there as well. We are in this together. All this madness will one day be behind us. Hopefully ALL will learn their individual lessons meant to be learned during this extremely trying time. Sending so much love to you!! xo

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  13. I’m so proud of you Amy, because I know the fortitude, the spirit and the love that resides inside you, despite and perhaps because of the trauma. Freedom is in our mind and in within our heart and the day will come that it’s within our movements and daily lives again. Know that I’m with you and I’m sending you so much love, light and blessings from across the ocean. Big hugs to you my friend. Take care and stay well.xxx. ❤️🌹

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    1. Aw, thank you, Miriam! Freedom is a state of BEing and depending on which mental lens one chooses, it can be possible to live freely even within the parameters set up today. A day is coming where the masses finally together say enough. It’s happening in Europe and I pray that here in the States and where you are, the movement catches on. Too many are so paralyzed in fear. That is the MAIN lesson for all of us …. close the door on fear in order to figure out how to move forward in a powerful and positive life-changing way. I’m with you as well!! Sending you huge hugs and lots of love over the waters. May your day be blessed today!! xoxoxoxo

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    1. Sheila, what you said is it exactly. No one knows what the other person’s story is so the lesson in all this I suppose, is tolerance and compassion. I’m learning to cope within the limitations imposed upon me and in so doing, I’m living my life according to me. Many blessings to you in return!! xo

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    1. You are welcome, Eliza. Yes it is important to express our side of things. Unfortunately the extreme censorship is not allowing that as we are all seeing more and more our first amendment being trampled upon. I agree communication from ALL help others to understand in order to develop tolerance and compassion. Hope you have a really great day today!! xo

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    1. Thank you, Ashok. I’ve been dealt a hand that if I allowed it to, could make me feel awful about myself and my life. However, I have chosen to live with the reality of what I have been dealt with and despite those factors, create love, beauty, joy, and peace. Yes I am a wounded child yet …. I have walked away from the victim permanently and will defend my inner child ferociously. God bless you for this touching comment. Much love to you! xo

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      1. That is the way Amy. Am so proud of you.
        I wrote a blog- Life is a Hand of cards. What is dealt to us in not in our hand. How we play it makes all the difference. You are playing it very well Amy

        Stay happy. Stay blessed 🤗

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      2. Aw, thank you, Ashok. It’s all about perspective and choices. I see my life now and I am SO grateful for all in my life. I see it as when enough pressure is applied, a beautiful diamond is created. (smile) You stay happy as well. I am blessed and I know you are too. Much love to you! xo

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  14. Masks stop stupid people sneezing and coughing on you and spreading Covid that way. For that reason, a face shield should be adequate. I suspect that the businesses won’t let people in without masks for two reasons. If they cough or sneeze on anything. the objects would need to be removed from sale. There may also be inspectors on patrol who, if they find somebody without a mask in the shop, have the power to close the shop, until it is deep cleaned. Even so a face shield should be adequate.
    My silly solution to the problem would be to buy some body paint and then to paint a mask on, and then wear a face shield. Nobody would notice!

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    1. John, knowing your mind comes from a historical war point of view, allow me to just comment on your words. What you have just described is a political communistic regime with modern day Gestapo tactics thrown in. Then there is the propaganda that is twisting facts, not even mentioning that microbes require animate “live” hosts to live and do not remain alive on inanimate objects for long, if at all. We have lived for a LONG time with bacteria and viruses all around us, so basically nothing has changed. Being educated in medicine, especially microbiology, I understand what is required for a virus to live and replicate and mutate … a LIVE host. Coughing and sneezing have been around forever. Out of the millions of microbes in the air and in combination with those that are contained within people, I ask you why is only one virus being mentioned? I just leave you with that thought. MY WORDS ARE BASED ON MY MEDICAL KNOWLEDGE AND OBSERVATIONS.

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  15. Who would have thought, even a year ago, there would be such divisiveness over masks? Though I wear a mask, I recognize that not everyone can (for many and varied reasons). It’s nice to be in a place (blog) where people can communicate thoughts so peacefully.

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    1. I know, Colleen. I’m staying far away from the divisiveness. I’m thankful I can wear the face shield so I do not make “waves”. I am not able to push back anymore, dear friend. What is being done to those of us with real respiratory issues is WRONG, very! But in fighting, it only wears me out. I am very aware of what I write even here and some of the content I have written in the comment sections I cross my fingers on. How sad that our first amendment no longer even exists in these tumultuous times and that hate has been allowed to reign freely. For this reason I put the “warning” on before this post stating what I did. Every single comment, dear friend, has been positive. Thank God!! I will continue to communicate peacefully. I AM the Peaceful Warrior. Much love to you! xo

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      1. Thank you AmyRose, and to you. I don’t mind people disagreeing but WOW the anger and hatefulness behind it is what gets me. I’m glad the responses have been positive. I so appreciate people who remember how to discuss and share opinions. Kindly.

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      2. That is called healthy conversation. I am SO grateful it can be found here at my blog. Taking no-thing for granted anymore, so many comments have been true gifts to me. I agree with you the vitriol that is evident everywhere I don’t know about you, but it shocks me to my soul. xo

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      3. I don’t mind people disagreeing. It’s healthy, actually. But only if we listen to one another and retain the skills we were taught in kindergarten. Listen. Share. Observe. Speak without hate and anger.

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  16. Thank you for your post Amy as well as your honesty and courage. I can appreciate childhood trauma and hearing how a mask stirs that up for you. Childhood trauma manifests in so many ways. I’ve been healing from childhood trauma for a number of years now and see so much difference in myself. It’s interesting it took me a long time to be able to label some of my experiences as trauma and to recognize I have complex ptsd from it. That inability to identify it is also an affect of experiencing it. Wishing you peace and serenity!

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    1. You are so welcome, Catherine. My hope with this post is to reach out to those like myself who are in the same predicament as myself. My poor sister has panic and PTSD worse then I do and immediately experiences suffocation if she puts a mask on. Like me, she just is not able to do it. Healing from childhood trauma is hard work and it takes a very strong and courageous person to do it. I am so proud of you for recognizing the truth about you. Welcome to freedom!!! Much love to you! xo

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  17. Such a beautiful post Amy, about the rawness many of us are feeling amidst this mad world we’ve landed in! That is bringing up past traumas to release with a smile😃. You’re right not to fight, it’s important for our own sanity to stay in the middle of this storm… which will pass! I can relate to some mask wearing who stare and judge as the schoolyard bullies❤️ a friend can’t wear one either but all she gets is abuse! I told her to ignore the bullies, but it’s not easy! It does make my tummy sick to wear the mask, and to counteract this I laugh and pretend I’m wearing a funny children’s animal face! As soon as I’m on my own I take it off even if I’m not supposed to! For much of the time I stay at home and can’t believe this is happening😓 IAM working on nurturing my wounded child too❤️ Thanks for sharing yourself Amy, much love❤️

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    1. Thank you, Barbara! What better way to share with honesty to reach those who are struggling as so many others are? For the most part I have disengaged fully from the world, only participating when I go to places like my hair salon and library. The parks I visit are those where people freely walk about without masks on their faces. I am witnessing the bullying about these masks for I have been a victim of that myself. Even with my medical exemption AND the Executive Order that exempts me as well, it is a rare day indeed when a business honors that exemption. I’m actually going to a hair salon today that understands thank goodness. I will NOT be bullied nor will I allow anyone to hurt me. The one time I did wear a mask, I suffered for 3 days afterwards in respiratory agony. Never again! I wear a face shield when I go to the library now. I will no longer fight. It’s not worth it. People are going to have to learn for themselves the detrimental effects all the way around from wearing masks. Not me. I like your attitude about the masks and I say GOOD FOR YOU!
      Staying at home for the most part too, Barbara. At first it was SOOO hard but now? I’m grateful I have the sacred space where the world does not intrude. I AM working on nurturing my inner child as well and in the process becoming a ferocious warrior to protect her. Much love in return to you!!! (((HUGS)))!! Xo

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    1. Thank you! You hang on too. We are all in this together! Things are actually getting better. I’m meeting people lately who are abiding by the Executive Order and understand I am not able to wear a mask. Humanity is returning!!!

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  18. Omg! I’m so sorry Amy you had such a traumatic childhood hon! I’m with you dear I’m not wearing a mask either I think it’s just not healthy period! The pics of the babies are sooooo very cute Gf ❣️And the other pics are so beautiful 😍 lots of love And big hugs ❣️👩🏻StacyAnne

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    1. Businesses here are being modern day Gestapo, StacyAnne. They are not allowing patrons in the stores without masks. All who are doing so have lost my business. The exception for now until I can find another, is my library. There I have to wear a face shield in order to go in to browse and get books. However, of late I am finding people and businesses who “know” the truth about current events and do allow me no mask. I actually walked into a new business today and was so taken aback I couldn’t walk for a few moments. To actually see people without masks on came as a huge shock. Normalcy I experienced today. Humanity I experienced today! And I’ve got more “leads” where to go where the same holds true. Oh for the joy!!
      As for the hardships I’ve endured, they have only shaped me into who I am and made me STRONG. We all have our challenges ….. some more so then others. It is what you do with those challenges that count. Much love to you, dear friend!! You sound like you are in a good place!! xo

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  19. So sorry to read this Amy. It must be very painful for you to write these words, but if they help some other people, it is surely worth it. We should all be mindful that not everyone can wear a mask for a variety of reasons, and not condemn them for this. It is time to be kind to people.xx

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    1. Actually, Chris, these words were not painful to write at all. They are just based on my life experience, and because I’ve come to peace with those experiences, I shared them with the intention, that others who are in the same predicament could be encouraged. I actually had a hair appt. yesterday at a new salon and was treated with dignity and respect. They honored me and allowed me not to wear a mask. Now, if I had this experience just last year it would have been nothing out of the ordinary. However, due to present day circumstances to be treated humanely is a GIFT! And OH how I treasured that Gift!! It is time to be both be kind and tolerant of others. I so agree with you! To find others who are living on the principals of kindness and love, brings great hope to my heart!! Much love to you this day!! xo

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      1. Thank you for your words – always a pleasure to read them. Sorry for the delay in acknowledging your comments, life is very busy being a full-time carer for my husband, whose health is now poor and he tends to fall a lot! I so enjoy your blog, with the beautiful photos and wise words! Much love, Chris xx

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  20. This must have been such a hard post for you to write, Amy. Not just the pain of reliving those moments being outside and feeling anxiety and being turned away, but also the pain from your past and feeling like you don’t have rights and have to hide from the world. That isn’t nice of businesses to turn you away when you have a formal exemption from wearing a mask. People can be so judgemental so quickly, and what you described brings out the worst some of us. Lovely the library and the other hairdresser are understanding towards you – and they seem to want the best for everyone.

    It’s strange times we live in. Here in Melbourne where I live, masks are now compulsory. don’t mind wearing one but honestly would much rather not wear one at all. There are some people who can’t wear masks for various reasons, and they need a formal letter from the doctor for that exemption. So far I haven’t seen anyone outside without a mask, so I am thinking perhaps they are hiding at home – and it would be really sad if they are unable to venture out.

    In these times, it is so important to try to keep positives and do what makes us feel as good as possible. In these times I choose to keep to myself and my loved one, stay at home as much as possible and appreciate what I’ve got. Sending hugs across the miles to you 💕

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    1. Actually, Mabel, this post was not hard for me to write at all. In fact it was a healthy release with the knowing this is who I am, this is what my life is, and from my life I hope to reach you to help you and know you are NOT alone. It’s terrible how people are acting like Gestapo and bullies by not obeying in full the Executive Order in place where I live. Ah, but I know in time those bullies and Gestapo will reap what they sow. We all have lessons in this phase of history and yes they will be learned one way or the other.

      Why people are wearing masks outside is besides me. It’s ridiculous. It is so stupid. If folks took the time to do research on a) what a virus is, b) what a virus requires in order to live, c) how many molecules in the air is normal to breathe (think million). How deplorable fear has been employed to have the uneducated public who don’t know medicine think there is danger in breathing fresh air. Talk about outrageous! I am an RN. I know what I am talking about.

      In these times it is VITAL that people educate themselves and stop listening to the lies that the media is deliberately pounding out. Propaganda! I’ve been out and about since March and not once did I get ill or have bad side effects from not wearing a mask. This whole situation is ludicrous. Time will come when what I am saying is a known fact by the majority. Now, however, fear reigns and when it does critical thinking flies right out the window. I stay home as much as possible to avoid the blatant insanity in this world and to avoid the tyranny that is running out of control. I know which world I live in and believe me it has nothing to do with what is going on all around me. I’ve a bubble of LIGHT around me at all times and I live my life according to me. No one will take that from me. No one!

      Sending hugs across the miles to you as well. I implore you, a very smart woman, to turn off the news and start digging with your own research as to figure out the truth about this virus. I did. And believe me, I have no fear. None. xo

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      1. That is good this post wasn’t hard for you to write and instead, more like a cathartic release of emotions. It’s great you are confident in yourself and your beliefs, you are you. Yes, lessons need to be learned right now. Bullies need to stop being bullies and need to learn to stop picking on you and everyone who doesn’t agree with them.

        I think the idea behind wearing a mask is to slow she spread of the virus. But as you mentioned, it doesn’t guarantee this at all. Fresh air does a good, and a lot of us who are staying cooped up at home need it. It is good you have been strong and healthy all this while, and I hope you continue to have good health. If we all lead a healthy lifestyle, being confident in ourselves and stop picking on others, perhaps we all wouldn’t find ourselves in this place right now.

        Take care, Amy. Keep up the good work with your art too.

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  21. As an abuse survivor with c-ptsd, I understand how masks can be triggering. They aren’t one of my triggers (I discovered this during cancer treatment, before this exceptional interlude in time), but I have many triggers I navigate every day. Sending {{{vibes}}} and oodles of (((hugs))) and poodle snugs your way. (My poodle told me she wanted in on this) — MW ❤️💙💜💚

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    1. To be aware of triggers is very empowering. Bless you as you navigate yours. We survivors as we learn how to live without the past imprisoning us, should be so very proud of how far we have journeyed. My heart goes out to you about your past …. those scars don’t disappear but it is very possible to learn how to best live with them in a healthy manner.
      THANK YOU for the vibes and oodles of hugs. Had a few rough days dealing with an “energy hit” but now am feeling more like me. This journey we are all on, is IMO the most challenging of our lives. I’m letting go of all that is familiar (scary!) to allow the free fall to happen so I can welcome new. And as for your poodle, I’m smiling of course. Thank you, sweetie!! Much love to you! xo

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      1. These are uniquely challenging times and we are all learning more and more about ourselves (and each other) on deeper and different levels than before. Relationships with others (friends, family, etc) are showing their truest colors, for better or for worse. This is a time of endings and new beginnings.

        By knowing and identifying our triggers, we can take better care of ourselves. It is a scary yet powerful time. Poodle is ready for a poodlebration! Much love and many blessings to you, MW 💙🙏💙

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