Deep cuts that excise hurt. Recovering from those deep cuts take time. A recent deep cut in my life involved two people who I considered to be friends for many years. With the grieving process kicked on to high gear traveling from shock and betrayal to acceptance and letting go left me drained yet triumphantly stronger.
We humans don’t like change. Instead of viewing a disaster as something horrible, it ultimately could very well be an opportunity for change, if we allow change to be. We could choose to be the victim, however, and cry “boo-hoo” look what is being done to me. I don’t stay the victim for long in those instances where I have wallowed in self-pity. I fight the victim to find the light again and I always do!
These deep cuts that dislodge us from people or circumstances that no longer serve our Higher Good, when they are released the pain is intimately crushing. When we walk wisely we know instinctively this to be a cut and so determine not to return to what caused the deep cut. Many, however, return to what was to be an opportunity for change only to have the “drama’ replayed again and again until finally [hopefully] the lesson is learned. Only then can forward movement be made. Out with the old, in with the new.
It is those of us who won’t settle or who don’t quit until understanding is obtained, we are the ones who see through the storm in order to embrace the sun. Sometimes that means a new way must be initiated before understanding comes which I coin, “I take the first step and then God shows up.” We don’t know if any of our steps are the right ones that will lead us to a brand new golden opportunity. I just don’t quit until I nail it.
In changing my lens from victim to victor and in following through with something that is bringing a new opportunity to me, I am finding in return integrity, respect and talent being shown towards me. Something which hurt me both emotionally and physically was the very catalyst that cracked me open in order for the old to be released making room for the new. I am constantly amazed by this process and admittedly, it is no fun to go through, yet when faithful the outcome brings great joy and more love into my life.
This post was born from a recent painful deep cut in my life that rendered me in a dark place. Thank you to those friends who listened to me and were there for me. My circle of friends has been shrinking due to what current events is doing …. putting so much pressure on people that their real truth is being squeezed out, in many cases truth that they were hiding. I consider true friends to be one of my Greatest Blessings in life, those very ones who have chosen to walk in love and not in fear!
*Lots of flowers coming. Stay tuned.*
Photography/ “Deep Cuts” /July 2020©AmyRose