The way I see things is this. You can either stand tall or fall hard. Of course there is always that perpetual white fence you can sit on. But besides that, it’s either standing tall or falling hard.
I’ve been hit a lot harsher then I’ve let on but most of you do know about my tremendous losses I suffered. Now that the shock has worn off and the endless tears have stopped, now comes the time I’ve stepped into. A choice of whether to stand tall or fall hard.
Many of you who I’ve come to know, already know what I am about to say. Oh yes I choose to stand tall. Some days it is so hard, almost impossible, and tempted am I to surrender to sad.
In the breaking and the crushing and the sword-sharp ripping tearing pain, my world as I knew it disappeared. The strong woman I had become disappeared along with that world and in her place was someone who could barely function, someone I did not recognize. The woman Hubby depended on to keep everything together … gone. A shell of who I once was shook before him which shook him to his Soul.
The return on standing tall has been amazing and if you had told me months ago what that return would have been, I’d say you were delusional. When I fell and broke into a disastrous mess, Hubby saw and in the seeing stepped up to the plate.
What began as small steps now today are big ones all resulting with ease and Peace and an openness we lacked before my Mom died. In the quake that hit (loosing Tee after Mom and my best friend before Mom) was exactly what was needed for Hubby to see no, I am not Superwoman after all.
He began to make decisions, good ones. What started as the biggest nightmare of my life has turned out to be the biggest Gift I have ever received in this marriage.
And it all really began shaping up when I decided to stand tall instead of falling hard. Hubby saw the heroic effort it took me to shake depression and tears to embrace Happy.
You may not see the Change you work so hard for and you may many times give up and want to throw the dish towel in. For more then 20 years I have attempted to encourage Hubby to live life and to be Happy. Seeing today this Change in him and how he is taking responsibility for his life, brings such Great Joy to my Heart.
In the breaking, and then the decision to choose Happy even with a broken Heart, something finally sank in, to get Hubby’s attention. I just couldn’t help but brag a bit to share with you my newfound Happy. Oh for the JOY that was brought forth from the hardest time in my life! Don’t give up, friends! Grab your Intention and don’t let go no matter how rough your ride gets.
Heaven is blooming right now in our Home and within my Heart. Dreams really do come true! Keep an open mind because just like me your Dream may come in a truly unexpected way. (smile)
Photography/ “Stand Tall Or Fall Hard”/ November 2017©AmyRose