when the arrow of anger
comes hurtling your way.
Maintain Heart’s safety
keeping anger barred far away
and instead find Integrity
so Flow can BE
to give rise to Compassion
which in turn
gives Love a chance
to tenderly dance
with the Heart that is torn
and wearily worn,
with Hope forgiveness is sought
and Love is brought
to that very Heart
so wearily worn.
I have had many opportunities over many years to develop self-discipline and self-control when exposed to anger. I’ve learned to stay high in Heart, to stay calm, and not to attach to the anger itself.
However, I fail maintaining this attitude in the times when the arrow of anger is so swift and so unexpected I’m left gasping and stunned.
I’ve learned that the anger is not about me even though it feels like it is. However, it is about a Heart that holds anger from the “ghosts of the past” or unresolved issues. And so like a child, that person lashes out with anger. Until that anger is dealt with, that anger will torture and hurt the person who holds onto the anger.
When I was rocked with my recent losses a few months back, I fell hard and I mean hard. Deep seated lower emotions exploded all over the place as my life crashed into destruction. I acted then in ways a young child would when hurt, lashing out at those around me. I was in so much pain I wanted to die right there on the spot. I didn’t know if I could get those emotions back under control nor did I know if I could find the immense strength required to call back my sanity to me. I knew I was not in my right Mind, and that scared me.
In my falling I gained Wisdom which gave Compassion a chance to grow even more in my Heart. That very very dark place I experienced is terrible and for anyone to live from that place my Heart just so cries out for Mercy upon that Soul.
Recently I was exposed to unexplained and unexpected anger. This arrow of anger hurt me for I did not have understanding as to the why of it. I’m still processing this hurt today.
Yet in all I have gained and all I have learned, I saw how much unresolved pain this person holds within the Heart. And in so doing, despite my hurt, Compassion stood tall. I wouldn’t wish anyone to live from a state of anger. In my opinion, it is hell on earth when a Heart allows anger to be its Ruler. When Unconditional Love is known, that person does not ever want to revert back to how he or she had lived in which the lower emotions ruled.
I hope this post allowed room for thought on your part. May each of you have a beautiful day!
Waterfalls image HANDHELD with shutter speed of 1/5th second. *pat on back*
Photography/ “Arrow Of Anger”/ November 2017©AmyRose