*Picture is of Rusty who is taking Tee’s death very hard. Tee was Rusty’s special brother. You can actually see the pain on his face and in his eyes.*
Three words, “I Love you”, have gotten stuck in my throat lately. I question how those words can be said when the other person doesn’t know me. I don’t say those words unless I mean them. They are precious to me.
These words are also so much easier to say when traveling the Light side of Love but much hardier to say within the Dark side of Love. Pain rules everything there.
The words, “I Love you” come effortlessly to my lips or my Heart when there is a real Heart Connection. I love those words! But this flinging them around when family drops into my life for a moment and then gone again or a mere acquaintance crosses paths with me, I have real problems saying those words.
I know what Real Love is and to attach a blasé attitude to those precious three words I just won’t do. So many toss these words around without much thought at all or for that matter, out of context with the true meaning of those three words. Is it me or does it seem to be the “new rage” to say “I Love you” to just about anyone?
Is it the incredibly difficult place I find myself in that gives rise to questioning what those words “I Love you” really mean?
The only way those three precious words are spoken, as I see it, is when over time a relationship develops and mutual respect and acceptance from both parties have developed. Comes a day when Love from the Heart bursts forth and the words come tumbling out effortlessly, “I Love you!”. I just won’t throw around words that to me are a Gift because everyone else is.
Once upon a time I said “I Love you” a lot and in looking back I now see I did so out of my neediness to be Loved. Over the passage of time and the Lessons that have evolved, my attitude towards those precious words have shifted and in so doing I now say them only when I mean them.
Please don’t get confused by this post. I practice Unconditional Love with all I interact with yet to blab “I Love you” all over the place, I just don’t do. At least I don’t anymore. Perhaps it is in this Dark Night of the Soul I find myself in that is dictating why I feel the way I do. For now this is what is for me.
MF Macro Photography/ “I Love You”/ October 2017©AmyRose