What had been buried
the Light now reveals
when the growth above
the murky Truth
making Way for Love
“Do you forgive me, Mom?”
“There is nothing to forgive, Amy.”
Words spoken, broke two generations of pain. In a mere few seconds, [dark] Karma came undone because Unconditional Love is stronger then [dark] Karma.
I had asked my Mom to forgive me as with breaking Heart I knew I could not leave, I could not step out of my life, even for one day to go and see her. The torment I felt (and still do) took weeks of hiking to undo or at least quiet to a tolerable level of endurance. Because of the choices I have made in my life, and because I have no one to replace me to keep my Cat Care Clinic running smoothly, not even for 24-hours, I had to make the excruciating decision I would not be physically present with my Mom so I could hug her, curl up next to her, hold her hand, look her in the eyes to say “I Love you”, before she went to Paradise.
You see, Life has many surprises in store for all of us and one of them for me is I happen to be walking in my Mother’s shoes. Determined not to be like my Mother I somehow now live a parallel life that my Mother walked. Now don’t that beat all? Different circumstances, yes, but still and the same I am walking her life. You bet the outcome is the very same. As is the Heartache involved.
Going back many years when I was 7-years old, my Grandma died. At that time my Mom had just given birth to her 6th child within a 7-year period. (Can you imagine???) Her Mom was dying. And my Mom in one of our Precious Conversations recently told me how she had been carrying guilt that she had not sat with her Mom enough when she was dying. The torment was hell itself. I heard it in my Mother’s voice.
The Conversation that ensued is private and will remain that way. But this I can tell you and will. I was able to calm my Mom and to help her think things out as to how Grandma, her Mom, who Loved one and all, would not ever have gone to her death with unforgiveness on her Heart towards my Mom.
“Do you not see how Grandma understood, Mom? You understand why I am not able to come to you when every atom of my Being wants to be there with you. Now that is exactly how you yourself felt when your Mom was dying. Don’t you think that Grandma knew and so understood, the circumstances you were in as well?”
And … don’t you think she would have said, “There is nothing to forgive, my Daughter?”
Yes she would have. I know. My Grandma did not have a mean bone in her body. My Grandma even when in pain and dying, made sure I still sat on her lap while she sat in her rocker, holding me tenderly as she whispered Love Words in my ear.
So you see, in the space of few seconds, [dark] Karma can be undone when True Love exists.
Please forgive yourselves even if there truly is nothing to forgive. “Do not have unforgiveness on your Heart” is the main Message I brought back with me from my NDE. That was in 1984. Only recently I am witnessing what a powerful Message I was given.
Photography/ “Karma”/August 2017©AmyRose
This picture was taken at Chestnut Ridge County Park, NY but because of the bright sunlight (which is not my forte) it took a lot of time for me to get this picture balanced, and to me it’s still not right. My knowledge in PS is limited. I did my best to portray the extent of the massive damage this tornado did. This tree trunk is huge with a height of nearing 100 ft. if not more. I really wish to return to this park on a cloudy day to again take pictures where the EF-2 Tornado directly hit this park. I will be showing more of those pictures here, I promise you.
*That cloudy day may be today*