Loss hurts. A friendship that had been so special and strong for years falters and falls when Change comes hurtling along at supersononic speeds. Huge Unforseen Life Changes drastically alter your friend’s life course. Cruelly, life tears down, pulls apart, smashes what once was leaving chaos, confusion and fear in its wake. The one Friendship Ship so solidly intact now finds itself in a relentlessly raging river of Life Changes that heartlessly throw that Ship completely off course into rough uncharted waters.
You hang in there as you witness your beloved friend suffering illness after illness, multiple surgeries, heartbreaking setbacks, and pain and worry. Friends don’t run so you stay and comfort and pray and do all you can to encourage and support your friend and to family as well. Yet all along in private at times you despair and fear that this treasured bond will forever be altered by the Fatale of Life. Emotions of every kind rip you in pieces, from denial, to anger, to tears, back to hope … with your Heart literally breaking.
The unimaginable is happening and you, bereft and stunned free fall through space, lost and so empty. Struggling to come to acceptance and to stop fighting the inevitable … the pendulum swings. Some days you are convinced you have accepted this new state of affairs and then the deep longing and ache return, wishing things are as they had been. Oh how you miss the way things were. You are just not willing, though, to walk away from a friendship like this one so you decide you will be there for your friend and the family.
Choosing to move into those uncharted waters you test the water with your big toe. And as you do, you grapple and you muster an understanding as how to deal with this great loss in your life. There is such a huge hole in your life without your friend actively in it. Oh Lord, your very bones ache from that loss! You wring your hands wanting at times just to quit, to leave, to say this is too hard I just am not doing it anymore. You make up your mind your life would be for the better if you leave your friend behind instead of doggy paddling in these wild uncharted waters. But! You hang on to the Ship, darn it, and say NO! I will not abandon this friend who showed such Love to me.
I have a friend who was such an enormous part of my life, but because of Huge Unforeseen Life Changes my friend finds himself facing a shocking string of nightmares which he keeps valiantly fighting to overcome. I will never forget what consisted of our friendship as it was, … the Heart to Heart talks, the honest sharing, the laughter and tears, the little secrets and confidences, the Unconditional Love, and just this person’s mere presence which made my Heart jump for Joy. And yes I do know that this Change has altered what once was into what is to come. Because I refuse to abandon this Ship I have faith that someday this hardheaded, determined, much Loved friend of mine will win against all that is now coming against him. I believe that again our connection will be reunited and his presence that was so constant in my life will again be.
MF Macro Photography Handheld/ “Fatale of Life”/ June 2017©AmyRose