In treating another without respect,
with malice and frigid ice,
know, Dear One,
that what is given by you
given thusly unto you.
In acting cruelly and harshly
we only set ourselves up
for a future date
with the rebound effect
wherewith the shoe is now
on the other foot
to truly forgive self
for hurting another …
as you find yourself
reeling from the cutting hurt
you never saw coming
Photography/ “Rebound Effect”/ March 2017©AmyRose
Many years ago when I was in my early twenties I met a young man. We both were very attracted to each other and we both fell in Love. As time went by I began to feel trapped, unglued, scared. Not knowing who I was and drinking excessively I had no clue what Love was. I knew I had very deep feelings for this young man but the thought of allowing him fully into my Heart terrified me. I began to withdraw and to drink even more.
His father who had been very ill succumbed to cancer and died. I went to the funeral with the family for by that time I was considered family. That young man hung on to me for dear life and I panicked, unable to bear a clingy needy man. My Heart became even more terrified and so without any word to anyone, I packed my clothes and left. As in returning to my birth state. I never did explain. I just ran.
I was young and only thought of myself, not caring that I left behind a man whose Heart was broken in a million pieces. All I cared about was to get away from the fear and the clinginess. I never apologized. And I never did realize just how badly I hurt this man until recently when an event happened in my own life. An unforeseen knife struck from someone who blocked me from communicating to a very dear friend. I was left devastated.
It is not important the emotions I experienced. What is important is the fact I finally “got it” regarding the extent of pain I caused another all those many years ago. And as I did, I closed my eyes and groaned, cried, and then in absolute humbleness, asked for forgiveness not only for what I did, but from this young man. Now I am not in contact with this man today so I did this all in the Spirit realm, having Faith that forgiveness has been given. And in so doing, this cycle is complete, the Lesson has been learned, and now I may go on without this painful Lesson to learn again. I received a Blessing in Disguise from someone who hurt me deeply.
Unfortunately for this person this cycle of rebound effect has just been created. We are in so many ways responsible for what occurs within our own lives. When we are awake we are aware of this. Something called Experience along with Time hopefully insures that we all grow in Wisdom in order to see the dark patterns in our Lives we ourselves created. Then and only then can we change those patterns back to Light.
Yes, I have forgiven the person who hurt me. And by doing so I am showing the Universe that I have truly learned my Lesson. I freed myself from a longstanding prison sentence. I step back into Flow and have Faith that All is Good. And so it is.
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