Release of the guards
bring
unveiling vile secrets
daring not to flinch
or look away
eye contact is made
with tears dripping down
showing the other
pain infinitely held
and in so doing
Infinity mirrors
in the other’s eyes
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MF Photography/ “Secrets” September 2106©AmyRose
@www.herladypinkrose.wordpress.com
Photograph taken with Canon EOS 6D
I had a Life Altering Experience not long ago that ruthlessly catapulted me into the deepest darkest pit where no light had ever been known. To have known death would have been preferred over that pit. Yet that is where I found my Little Amy, cowering, terrified, paralyzed, unable to get out of that terrible place. I scooped her up in my arms and brought her to the Light, and there she sobbed and spoke of the Truth born of more then 50 years ago, Truth not of her own doing. And when she did, the reflection of her pain was seen in another’s eyes and for the first time ever, Little Amy’s story has been validated as she takes the first steps to freedom.
Those secrets no longer have any power to hurt Little Amy or Big Amy. Those secrets have been heard, meaning they are no longer secret.
I did minimal editing on this image. At the time of this capture, the sun was rapidly heading for the horizon and if it had not been for a very unpleasant exchange earlier, I would not have caught the Light exactly as it is here. Again I say, all is used for Good!
❤ ❤ ❤
❤️❤️ a powerful step indeed.
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You of anyone would understand, Rita. My Life is changed forevermore. Much Love, Sister!!! ❤
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Much love right back to you ❤ ❤ <3. That which doesn't kill us . . . .
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Makes us stronger ….. Groan!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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By now we ought to be able to bench press bus loads of tourists.
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At least. For real! I must check in with my Higher Self and tell Her I do belive I have gained enough strength. So enough all ready!!! I’m ready to rock and roll!!! LOL ❤
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Let ‘er rip darling.
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My plans are to stain and varnish (oh yay what fun) listening to rock and roll. Dancin’ as I stain ……. Yippee!!!
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I’ll dance with ya but you can keep that varnishing stuff all to yourself. I’m working on re-configuring my office space and I’m drawing out a desk I want to make for myself.
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Woo Hoo!!! Good for you!!! I’m not too keen on staining and varnishing myself. Doing it in the garage so I don’t get too high from off the fumes. Tee hee …..
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Well! I didn’t know we’d be gettin’ high – I’ll be right over 😉
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Tee hee ….. Come on over! I only have the good stuff!!! LOL And …. Are you building that desk, Ms. Rita??
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I’m gonna try! I’m loving this work from home and freedom to try the things that I’ve wanted to do for so long, Amy. I want/need a workstation that gives me the option to both stand and work as well as sit down.
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Awesome! I’m SO excited for you! I’d love to see the blueprints and or drawings when you are finished. I LOVE to create with my hands and working with wood is no exception. The thing with that I have to get my math brain un-rusty. It’s been too long since I applied myself with math and I used to not only love it but I was really good at it. Have fun!!!
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See, I want something totally organic – like a jigsaw puzzle. I have cinder blocks, old doors and filing cabinets in my mind
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Oh wow!!! I am impressed!! Perhaps you could start your own line of furniture? I’d bet you would be a natural!! 🙂
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Nah, I don’t like people that much LOL
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Why do you think I hang with animals much of the time? Tee hee ….
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LOL
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And another deer 🙂
Hard as it may be Amy, there is always a silver lining, even in the hardest journeys. But it would still be great to have the occasional good time regardless, without having to ‘climb’ through something 🙂
But the beauty in this photo IS a lovely lining indeed, you have a great touch, thank you for sharing 🙂
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I do have good times without the hard climbing, Mark. That is the Beauty of my Life. I go through phases and lately my Life has been all about healing. As I keep moving forward bringing all that I have newly claimed, I know my Life will continue to unfold with more and more Beauty, for how could it not? What is within is reflected without. And now that I have broken through the deepest darkest part of my BEing, in that freedom, I soar ever higher. Bless you this day, dear friend!! ❤
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And blessings to you too Amy…your peeling back the onion covers, and more and more light is coming through.
I can even feel the glow from here…even your photo’s are glowing in their beauty.
Enjoy the new journey, you have worked very hard to create where you are now at, take great pride in that my friend, it isn’t an easy path, but it does create the one thing that we have been lacking in our lives…a love of self.
You have been battered and bruised, inside and out, and with a great love you are now free. Yes, you will remember the ‘bits’, but within that will be the beauty of ‘knowing’ who you now are, and what it means to stand in that new heart and love of what you have become.
Welcome home! ❤ ❤
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Much Love to you, Mark. ❤ (((HUGS))) ❤
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You are a very strong soul, dear Amy 🙂
If you look back at your life, you will experience, that no matter what happened, you always raised again. Sometimes after a short time and other times it demanded more time.
Do you know the Russian dolls called Babuscka? It means Grandmother. There use to be around 5 dolls inside each other.
When we experience bad things, we cover ourselves with a new shell to protect our soul against more harm. This an be done many times in our life. When we later decide to be free, we need hard work to get rid of all those shells. You have been working so very hard to find your inner soul and peace. Much love you ❤ Irene
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Seems as if my Higher Self has had a huge hand in all the “healing” that I’ve done recently because to be truthful with you, Irene, I do not have the ability to go to these places within myself on my “own” power. I’ve tried. Yet when Life throws some really hard balls to smash the outer cover, that is when I can reach this place, a place of utter and complete darkness. I am deeply deeply humbled by my own strength to live to tell what I have done. If you have not experienced the agony of this place you wouldn’t have the understanding as I do how terrible it is, and how death really is preferred over that of this place.
Yes I know of those dolls and I understand perfectly what you are saying. There are 5 dolls in each doll, each getting smaller and smaller as you open the doll. This is a perfect analogy of what I have been going through and I thank you so much for putting that image in my head. I pray OH how I pray this healing now is finished as my little Girl becomes accustomed to her newfound freedom. It will be exciting to see how my Life overall changes. I already am seeing changes, all for the better.
Much Love to you this day, dear friend!!! ❤
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Healing takes time and you are in the right direction Amy.
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Thank you for the encouragement, Irene. This is hard work!!! ❤
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What an image! I love how your art is helping you find yourself.
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All of my Life it seems, is working hand in hand, Marissa. When I take a step back and observe the “coincidences” and the “events” I am stunned by what is unfolding. Hard stuff for sure to walk through yet the result is freedom. And sometimes in gaining freedom, one must fight in order to gain it. Believe me, I fought a war to gain this freedom! ❤
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I know you did but what a great feeling to have gotten to where you are today.
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Your spirit and heart goes perfect with your shot Amy, standing strong and reaching for the light looking at life brightly 🙂
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Thank you, Andy!!! Wow, thank you for “getting” this image!! Much Love to you this day! ❤
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Cheers Amy! ☺️
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Moving on or changing are always requiring of us to do the hard things.
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Again, this caused me goosebumps! I wish I could hug you, those moments are milestones! The photo you chose is most amazing to go with your words, dear 💖
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Erika, you and whoever else read my comments over on your blog, are the only ones who know the circumstances behind this post, even if I did leave out the exacting details. So much has happened since both Prinny and Karma died, with Life just throwing me into such circumstances meant as only hindsight will show, a means to get that hard extremely hard shell cracked so that I could enter a place I would not have been able to otherwise. This healing journey is exhausting, and still today I feel weary. I have excitement bubbling away for now I want to see what is to come, how my Life will change for the better, now that I have done some very very life altering healing. This photo I did not touch much at all, wanting it to be seen exactly as I saw it. I could have fancied it up, but no, it was meant to be seen as is. Bless YOU for being a part of this journey for I poured my Heart out to you. The “timing” of your quote yesterday just was a vehicle for me to empty this vessel of mine out into your Compassionate Listening Ear. There is great power in listening, dear friend, and for reaching out in Love and Compassion. Nothing compares to this Power. Nothing. Again, Bless you for being in the right place at the right time. Love, Amy ❤
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I am humbled that you shared so much on my post. I don’t take it for granted at all and I treat it with respect and care! Thank you for your trust! It is the greatest gift someone can get. And believe me, Amy, that with what you shared and the way you shared it you also brought a lot of beautiful light in motion within me. There is always this light waiting for us. We need to be ready to see it but it is always there and it accompagnies us although we might not see it. We are never lost and never forgotten. When the time is right then the blessing, the insight, the gift will be absorbed so much more! Thank you again, dear friend. 💖
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Very well done sweet human!😺
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Thank you, dear Shrimp!!! This is one of my “deeper” posts. Lots has been going on since my babies have died, all very hard yet the outcome is for the best and my highest good. Hope you and the human are all good today!!! Love, MB ❤
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Oh no! I’m sorry you lost one (?) of your babies!! But look what beauty came from your heart!🌹
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We lost 3 babies in 9 months, Shrimp. It’s been just darn awful!! ❤
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Oh NO!! I’m so sorry!!
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Aw, thank you, Darlin’. It’s been very hard but right now the rest of the catamly are looking the best they have in a very long time. It had been so stressful knowing some of our Loved ones were very ill and dying. *tears* The teddy on my gravatar was Karma’s buddy, his best friend. I still have not been able to write a memorial about him. It’s just too painful. Love you, Shrimp!!! MB ❤
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Oh sweet Mom Bonzo – just know that while they lived, they knew they were loved – and you gave them the best life possible!🌹 Love you too!
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Beautiful!!
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Thank you!!! ❤
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Be strong; but of course you already are. 🙂 Keep on keeping on dear Amy. 🙂
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Thank you, dear friend!!! ❤
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I am so glad to hear that you are making progress on this journey, Amy, and I am very happy that you took advantage of a delay and captured this scene. I love the light and the reflection and the color, oh, and the composition. I think that covers it.
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Well, here I am. Finally. Engrossed in working on getting a wooden screen door ready to be put in. I’m on the stain and varnish project now. 🙂
Thank you, Dan, for your wonderful comment and encouragement. I am so glad you enjoyed this image. And yes this woman who I am is healing, exhausted from the work, yes, but in the end, free. Hope it’s not hot as blazes where you are as it is here. I’m working in 90 degree heat! Bummer!! 🙂 ❤
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It’s nice today Amy, but heading into the 90s tomorrow. I’ll take it. As they say, it beats the alternative.
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Dan, believe it or not, I am ready for cooler temps. I said cooler, NOT cold. 🙂 This heat has just been brutal this year and the drought has had me worn out running around watering my massive gardens. *sigh* All in the day of a life …. 🙂
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I believe you. I’m right there with you, Amy.
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I am also glad that you captured this picture. It is a rough journey and going through transitions myself lately. So glad that you are coming out the other side. Sending virtual hugs to you my dear friend ❤
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Receiving those hugs, Kathy, thank you!! Healing on whatever level is not easy and it takes a very brave and courageous Soul to agree to do it. I attempted many times to get to this dark place in order to get in contact with my little girl, but that fortress was so locked up tight, I could not gain entrance. It took life circumstances that rocked my world to shatter the shell of protection, and there in the dark recess of insanity, I found my little girl. This has been the most intense work ever I have undertaken. Not only is it effecting me, but it is effecting my husband, for the good. I pray your journey comes to an end and only blue skies and lots of fun are seen by you. I would think in many ways you can relate to not only this image but what I wrote. Bless you, dear friend, on your Journey!! May its end be in sight!!! With Love, Amy ❤
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I so agree with you that healing isn’t easy but it is so worthwhile. So glad that you found your little girl and also that it is helping your husband. Things are good here but when I was 18 due to lack of family support was a major turning point in my life. The other night I went back to that point, cried and feel so much better. May your end be in site also my dearest friend. Love you ❤
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Love you too, Kathy. I discovered if we do not feel the emotion of the time of our lives where so much darkness was created, and then let it go, that event will still fester. My release in tears and feelings is the start of a new beginning for me. I’m just so happy that you as well are coming to terms with your past. In order to live fully as we are destined to live we must completely let go the past that hovers like a demented ghost. And only then we are free in ways we never before dreamed. ❤ ❤ ❤
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You are so right, Amy.It has festered for years. It’s unbelievable after all the tears and feelings I now feel so calm and so much better. I knew you would understand. Hugs ❤
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God Bless you, Kathy!!! I know this is hard work and damn it hurts! And afterwards the exhaustion hits where you just want to sleep sleep sleep. As we walk this together, each day we get a little bit stronger, a lit bit more steadier, a little bit more together. You are not alone!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Yes, been sleeping so much better and don’t feel as exhausted as I was. It means the world too me that we are doing this together and want to be there for you. Thank you my dear friend for all your encouragement and I am there for you also!!!! ❤
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❤ (((HUGS))) ❤
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A powerful photo to match the power of your words… and the emotion of the two combined together Amy. Wishing you a great week ahead, and to a clear and uplifting autumn coming your way.
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Bless you for seeing the “power” behind this post, Randall. May your week be Blessed as well!!! 🙂 ❤
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This is an amazing image. You were meant to find it to heal your soul after your nasty experience. It is very serene and calm. Just what you needed
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Thank you, Raewyn. No there are no coincidences as evidently you know. Hope your day is going well for you!! ❤
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What a beautiful hidden place! ❤
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Thank you!! ❤
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This is a beautiful way of expressing childhood pain and how it ekes out of our pores and becomes part of our present self. I really liked the way you opened your heart ❤ so others may share and become whole again. I ache for Little Amy but am so proud of Dear, Kind, Courageous Grown Up Amy!! Hugs and kisses, Robin xo
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Thank you, Robin. God bless you! I’ve been going through so many painful events that have led all to the place where the hard shell could be broken in order to let the Light in. I need about one solid week’s sleep, or at least that is how I feel. 🙂 ❤
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So glad you shared this Amy! You are one strong soul. The photography is just amazing, love the lighting! 🙂
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Thank you, Alifya. I pray my journey of strength is over for the time being. I deserve a phase that is fun and sassy! 🙂 ❤
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Sure thing!! It will Amy 🙂
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Wonderful image. I love the shadow and the light on that tree!
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That light and shadow is exactly what pulled my eye, YellowCable. It was incredible to see!!! 🙂 ❤
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That’s a work of art. Beautiful image Amy. ❤
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Thank you, Maverick!!! ❤
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Beautiful picture! Who is Little Amy? I have only read a few of your posts so maybe I am missing something. Or maybe Little Amy is you?
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My little Amy is the little girl inside of me who was very hurt as a child. I experienced abuse as a child in just about every way you can think of. I have spent years freeing that little girl. ❤
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Oh no. Sorry to hear that. I haven’t been following your blog that long, so I’m sure there is a lot I don’t know that you may have posted about already.
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You are a light upon the earth….perpetual energy light…let it shine. Which you do, all the time.
Blessings
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Oh, Micheal! Dear heavens, Michael! You’ve left me speechless! Bless you, Bless you! ❤ ❤ ❤
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❤ ❤ ❤
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We become special from the journeys each of us has taken.
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I so agree, Charlie!! ❤
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Such a powerful poem. Love the photograph, and the lines of the tree with it’s reflection is amazing.
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Thank you so much, Janell. I so appreciate your kind words. ❤
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The pain of peeling back those layers which lay hidden so deep are now for many dear Amy surfacing and seeing the Light of day.. I am pleased you are uncovering that which has lay hidden.. Secrets then no longer have the power to hurt us..
You have taken a great step, one that needed courage.. But now every new step you take will have added lightness as you leave that dark past which has now been illuminated ..
Your Inner child I know thanks you for that courage Amy, and together both healed you will walk all the steadier along your future path..
❤ Love dear sister..
Sue xx ❤
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A new dawn has come, Sue. I feel it. I’m living it! 🙂 ❤
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Good to know Amy.. 🙂 Big smiles.. Its wonderful isn’t it xx
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Amazing post
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Thank you, Masoom!!! ❤
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You’re an amazing writer with strong and powerful words, you can tell its from your soul!
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That is one of the nicest comments anyone has written. I am just stunned and so darn grateful to you. Thank you! ❤
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Your welcome! This is just my beginning, so I’m hoping I can be successful just like yours.
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It is a lot of hard work and very time consuming. I make sure that there is Heart to Heart interaction on my blog, making all who do come feel welcome. You keep on being your authentic self and keep your eyes open as to how to succeed. Petals Unfolding has grown so big and at times for me, having a very full life, overwhelming for to keep up. I will support you as best as I can, using the reader to find your new posts and to make sure I get over to your blog when I see you here. There is so much involved. I believe you are off to a great start. You keep on commenting just as you did here and you will have people stunned and wanting to get to know you. I wasn’t joking when I said what I did about your comment. You are a special woman for I “see”. I really LOVE your gravatar FYI. Your Heart shines through your eyes for you are as beautiful outside as you are inside. If you want any tips how to get people over to your blog, email me and I will do my best to answer you promptly. Much Love, Amy ❤
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There is always a silver lining in everything we see, do, and encounter… Thank you for the advice and future help! It’s amazing people are nice on here! As I said it’s just the beginning so it’s going to be an amazing experience being on here and what life has in store on here . Xoxo steph
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Beautiful image my friend .. Some secrets are best shared
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Some secrets are very hard to share, Julie. Yet when they are, they loose their power. 🙂 ❤
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Oh that is so true ..
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Just enchanting………
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Wow AMAZING!
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Thank you! ❤
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