Every day of my Life I defeat fear. Every. Single. Day.
If I allow fear to snatch my mind, seize my stomach, freeze my body I would not live at all. I would be nothing but a lump of flesh, existing and that is pretty much it.
There is so much fear in this world at large today
it is so easy to escape from living
to avoid the madness that is so rampant.
I, for one, refuse to escape
into an existence that does not support real Life.
Upon wakening each and every day, I do not know what lies ahead for that day. None of us do. Caring for special cats from day to day that have many health issues, I never know when those issues will strike. I get up with the Intention all will be well, and I if those issues are seen, I address them in order to maintain equilibrium in all bodies and minds within my cat family. There have been some days that have almost broken me.
Yet, I do not cave into fear.
Before my husband gets out of bed each and every day, I do not know what frame of mind he will be in. Many times I have slipped into fear and my breath gets caught in my throat. When that happens I have to stop what I am doing and consciously get my breath back under control, tell myself I am strong and protected, and I thank God for the Love and the Guidance I am given in order to handle whatever frame of mind my husband is in.
PTSD, Depression, Anger Issues, OCD, Paranoia (the Vietnam war is not over), individually are enough to contend with. When stress is very high my husband freaks with combined symptoms of his issues. It takes much effort on my part not to fall into fear but to remain calm, rational, and a Voice of Authority when need be to get my husband back on even ground. Many times nothing I do or say helps. Attempting to get calm a spooked, wild bronco when stress hits is what comes to mind to describe the “states” my husband falls into. The stressors of Life put him right back in those jungles not knowing if he was going to live on any given day.
But, I do not fall into fear!
In the years 1994 and 1996, I was mostly bed bound from excruciating back and leg pain. Two failed surgeries made a back injury plunge from really bad to horrific. I was also a prescription drug addict taking so many pills that it is truly a miracle I am alive today. Looking back, I just shake my head not understanding how I managed to change my reality from death to Life. If I told you all I experienced, I don’t think you could comprehend much of anything unless you yourself walked in my shoes.
Fast forward today. I chose to not only get out of my bed but to walk away from disability and drug addiction. And I have done it! Presently I am still in the process of improving my physical body but to think of who I was to who I am today … it is truly something to be so very proud of!
The progress I have made has been extraordinary!
Every day I live Life to give my body every chance to heal, and although it has taken years of solid good nutrition, exercise, and not giving up, my body is healing. Today is the strongest I have yet to be since my back injury in 1993 and I plan to keep right on going. I want all of me back and that includes gaining muscle loss and healing nerve damage.
I refuse to allow fear to rob me of the Gift of Healing in my Body.
I face fear every single time I go hiking.
There was a time just last summer I was terrified to hike on the forest trails because I might fall. This year I have thrown caution to the winds and now am hiking those very trails. At first they just about put me six feet under. I did not know where I was not sore! Was I scared? Oh yes but I refused to stop. I just refused to quit!
Today? Those trails are becoming easier. I actually JOGGED uphill recently gaining momentum to get up the steep incline that was before me. Me? Jogging? Are you serious? The same woman who was bed bound and not walking for almost two years?
Here again I did not cave into fear but kept on going.
Friends, I encourage all of you not to give into fear. We all must first begin with our own lives defeating fear before fear can be defeated in this world. It’s amazing once you choose to defeat those things in life that terrify you how empowered you feel.
I am SO alive! I am SO happy to be alive! I am SO strong and healthy! OH FOR THE JOY!!! Will you join me? Will you conquer fear in one aspect of your Life to become strong and healthy? Do this not for me but for you!
If I can do what I am doing today, I know you can too. Remember, I was not walking for almost two years. Go back up and look at my pictures. They speak volumes and yes, this is the real me … no airbrushing.
May encouragement be experienced with this post I wrote for today.
Photographs taken at Chestnut Ridge County Park, NY.
Photography/ “Fear Defeated” 6-2016©AmyRose
@www.herladypinkrose.wordpress.com
Cheers Cheers Amy!! ^.^/
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*blush* Thank you, Andy! It took a lot of courage for me to post this today. Bless you!! ❤
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I’m happy you did Amy! keep them coming 🙂
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I will, Andy!! I am working on another post now. 🙂 ❤
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hooray! 🙂
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Damn, woman! You make me smile.
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Rita, I’ve begun to cry. And I am covered in goosebumps. I had to post this story for mainly myself. Thank YOU for reading about my Life and how much I have accomplished! ❤ ❤ ❤
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You know me well enough to know we are kindred spirits. We walked through it and came out women on fire.
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YESSSS, Mame!!!! Yes we did!!! And OH how I LOVE you for you!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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I can hear the woods echoing with the theme from “Rocky.”
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Scott, darn it, you and Rita both are getting me to cry. I’ve come such a long ways, and to show you me today is both scary and triumphant. Thank you for viewing this post today. This is one of the most important posts here thus far. This one shows I have really begun to open myself to all here. ❤
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Don’t cry. Dance.
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Beautiful post, and I can imagine how hard it is to bare your soul like that. Thanks for sharing with us, and I wish you more strength.
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Thank you and Bless you, Dr. Hb. I have so many amazing stories yet to tell them I must stop hiding and really show myself. Yes it is scary but I am freeing myself in doing what I am by writing posts like this one. Thank YOU so much for reading this post. You have no idea how much it means to me!!! ❤
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You inspire all of us, Amy!!!
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OH, Ann!!! Coming from you that is high praise. Thank YOU! Much Love! ❤
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And a very courageous and heartwarming journey you have endured young lady. A self belief, a physical and emotional re-building, as well as a love to find that beautiful truth within my friend 🙂
Never fear standing in that truth, it is your guide to find that love and happiness that we all seek. It has much strength and power in just being in that place, and will carry you places like no other 🙂
Well done Amy, may that love wrap you in your arms, heal you more, and always be at your side. Namaste ❤
P.S. And a great post, as truths always are…never be afraid to stand in it 🙂
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My guide to wholeness has been my Inner Guidance, my Heart for years, Mark, and It has never steered me wrong. I stopped listening to “man” a long time ago and have gone with what I “heard” from within. Not always easy and many times downright scary as I seem to many times fly by the seat of my pants, not knowing if what I am doing will work. I am so determined to get all of me back, dear friend, as I continue on this amazing Journey called Life. I have SO many stories to tell that my short sayings may be a thing of the past. I don’t know. Again with this I follow my Heart. Thank YOU for reading my testimony on how I refuse, just refuse to get into a state of fear. Wishing somehow the entire world could read these words to get them to start thinking (hopefully) that living in fear is not Life, but rather death. I’ve been shunned in “real Life” for speaking Truth. I am so stunned to find people who accept me for me here on WP because again in real Life, I’ve had very little of that kind of acceptance. That too, I intend to be changed. And it will for with all things, once energy is changed, a new energy will be attracted to that changed energy. (smile) ❤
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And all of your energy has changed Amy, the universe has smiled in recognition, and the seat of your pants may no longer be as dirty or gravely from being sat back on it so often 😀 Just believe in you 🙂
Looking forward to hearing the sound of healing in your words my friend….take a bow, the curtains have opened 🙂
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Covered in goosebumps. Mark, ….. Pooling tears in smarting eyes …. I hear the Voice of Source in your words. Bless you!!! And so it is! ❤
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Bless you and thank you for sharing this inspirational post with us! It spoke to me today. Thank you!
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Bless YOU, Laura!!! I am so happy that I have inspired you today. May you be encouraged and know YOU can do anything you put your Mind to. (((HUGS))) ❤
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Thank you, AmyRose! Hugs back!
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It’s a real pleasure getting to know you Amy! Thanks for the inspiration, my friend! Praying for your continued healing and joy unthinkable to chase you all the way up to the top of that mountain!!
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Awhhhh, Laura, you’ve brought tears to my eyes. This very long journey that began in the early 90’s continues today. Every day I intend to take back this mind/body in ways I haven’t even yet imagined. Bless you for your kindness. It is people like you who spurn me on to keep on going, especially on those days when the going gets tough. Much Love, ❤
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Anxiety/fear issues are what drove me to art! And I have multiple food intolerances. I’m on a path to healing physically, mentally, every other way too so I totally understand. You’re further ahead on the path than me so you really inspire me to reach higher. I need to get back into the yoga, it was helping me so much! I will be sure and do it first thing in the morning. You inspire me so much Amy! I’m so glad to have found you here at WP. Thank you and bless you. May the wind always be at your back! 💜
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Oh, Honey! With an attitude like you have, you will attain all your goals and more. My camera is my therapist same as your Art is to you. You have much more going then you think for I “feel” your essence which is sparkly and golden. I was thinking of starting posts titled Spine Health and show certain Yoga poses I do, explain them, and encourage others to do the same. Health begins both in the “gut” and in the spine. Food is so so important which you are figuring out. The better I eat the more I cannot tolerate junk food. Sugar is soooooo bad for the body yet for example you can eat all the fruit you want and still be OK. OH I could talk to you all night but I really must get off of here. I still have one more baby to feed, get in the shower and crash into bed. I’m weaving on my feet now as it is. It is MY pleasure and honor that we have met. It thrills me to know that other’s of like mind and Heart really do exist. YOU keep on shining and keep on striving. Listen to your Heart which knows what is best for you. You are amazing!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Bless you and thank you! Take care of those babies and rest those bones. 💜💜💜 We shall shine on!!!
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How and how to overcome, nice.
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Thank you, Gary!!! Much Love ❤
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Your courage and fortitude are truly inspiring. I was bed bound for 5 years and now I am in a wheelchair rolling around freely. I never believed in the healing power of this temple God gave us but now I do! I am on this journey with you, dear Amy. Not quite as progressed as you are but on my way. It’s so nice to know that you are here! The possibilities are endless! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Carol, OMG! You have made huge progress and I am just so touched, so proud for being your friend!! Nice and easy does it, OK? The coming back to walking status for me was grueling and still at times to this day, is. Muscles being pulled in the wrong direction and atrophied (dying). Ligaments weak. Inflammation at joints. Damage to nerves that doctors say cannot, I repeat cannot be healed, but I am doing it. How? With movement. With exercise. Diet. Frame of Mind. And not giving up no matter how tired I become, how discouraged I get (and I do), nor how much I hurt. Listen to your body, dear friend. Listen to the guidance of your Heart. When you feel fear question if you can overcome it or if it is there for a reason telling you to stop. This is a Journey only you can take, yet with those around you to encourage you, anything is possible. Sending Much Love and (((HUGS))) your way today!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Love right back to you! ❤
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What an inspiring post Amy…and what great pictures. You look beautiful…and I mean that in a sense that goes beyond aesthetics…so strong and powerful and fit!!!
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Thank you, Marissa. Thank you! What you see is the product of over 20 years of consistent self-improvement. My arm tattoo represents me going through 3 months of drug withdrawal in 2001 that almost killed me several times. I didn’t mention that nor the fact when I was finally through the withdrawal, I hardly could understand the written word and I had a lot of trouble writing and spelling. So it hasn’t just been all my physical body that has been healing. I’ve come so far, and I intend to even go further. Thank YOU for reading my story and by doing so, getting to know me better. Bless you, dear friend!!! ❤
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Oh wow! What a process…almost like going through a stroke or something. So glad you are better and a true testament to the dangers of prescription drugs!
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❤ (((HUGS))) ❤
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Amy, I don’t know what to say! I mean there is so much that goes through my mind and heart, but it is almost impossible to put it into words. Where you went through and the long way you have come …. and then the photos of yours…. I had goosebumps and teary eyes throughout reading our post. This is so wonderful! I wish I could hug you for what you achieved for yourself but also for everybody to show that everything is possible… it is only about the inner decision!!! Huge hugs, Amy 💖
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Now you have got the tears going on my end, dearest Erika. I left a lot out of this story but, in telling it the way I did, you do get the understanding of what I have gone through and still am today. Yes, I have been through a lot and I have done the impossible. I strive, I push, I just will not give up! I won’t be defeated and I won’t have the surgeries that the surgeons tell me I need. They want to put a titanium cage in my back from mid back down. NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! What they don’t undertstand is that our bodies truly are made to heal when the right tools are given it to do so. Bless you for the reblog, dearest friend. I will be over to your blog when I can to comment. I’m in the middle of cat routine this morning. (Smile) Love you!!! ❤
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I always knew that you are amazing, Amy! But what you showed is outstanding! It is so very true what you say about the healing process of our bodies. We can do that on our own. WE CAN! And you already proved it!
I feel blessed to know you. I had to reblog. It is such an motivation and help for others! Bless you, dear friend 💖
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*tears* and *smiles*
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😘💖😘💖😘
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You have a very inspirational story — thank you for telling it to us readers. And your enthusiasm is infectious!
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YOu are so very welcome, August. I am honored to share my story with all who read it. Bless you for doing so!! ❤
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Reblogged this on Erika Kind and commented:
I know I reblog quite a bit lately but you need to read this post! Amy is an example that you can overcome everything when you make the decision!
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You look great. Thanks for the encouragement.
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Thank you, Carol!! And your are so very welcome!! ❤
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Yay!!!! I’m SO happy for you and you are a wonderful example to everyone of what a person can accomplish. ❤
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Thank YOU, Gigi!!! Much Love to you today!!! ❤
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I am so glad that you’ve decided to share some of these personal stories, Amy. You’ve hinted about these things in comments and a few posts, but this is good to read. You’ve done well, and you’ve held strong against some curve balls nature and whatever have thrown at you. I feel lucky that we found each other out here where these stories can be shared.
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Dan, it has taken a lot of inner work for me to share as I have done today. When I was a child I was punished and punished severely for showing my real self. I had to conform to what my mother wanted me to be in order not to be punished. I learned to hide my real self. I have for decades been determined to get Amy back, in full, and that is exactly what I am in the process of doing now. You don’t know how much this post means to me, nor how much it means to share it with those who are my friends at WP. Bless you for reading this, my friend. I am honored that you now know some aspects of my Life. And from here, I keep on telling my stories. The ones of my childhood will wait until my mother passes out of respect for her. Have a very sunny day today!!! ❤
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Understood 🙂
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Amy, what a beautiful and encouraging post. You really touched me with all that you have come through and your love and determination to make each day better and better.
Really love this “I am SO alive! I am SO happy to be alive! I am SO strong and healthy! OH FOR THE JOY!!! Will you join me? Will you conquer fear in one aspect of your Life to become strong and healthy? Do this not for me but for you!”
Although I have never been bed bound and can only imagine what you went through. I think I told you that I was given 3 months to live in 1998 due to PBC and on a transplant list. 18 yrs later I am here and getting stonger each year. We are kindred spirits and love your stance in the picture. Much Love and here for you ❤
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No, Kathy, I did not know what you went through in 1998. I cannot even begin to imagine how you must have felt being told you have 3 months to live! I am SO proud of you for gaining your health and strength back, and yes yes yes it surely takes time when you have been that ill. I know. We are kindred spirits most certainly! How Craig must cherish you knowing how close to death you came. I for one am so happy you are still on this side of the Veil and my friend at that. Bless you for reading my story. You and others are empowering me to have the courage to show myself, and in so doing, YOU are assisting me to free myself. I had to hide me in self protection as a child for it was not tolerated that I show my real self. I was forced to act a certain way in the presence of my mother. Every chance I got I rebelled. It is only now I am finding myself and my voice and putting me all together again for all to see. What a Gift I have been given through the connections I have made with Petals. And yes, dear friend, it is now all about connections and friendships. I have stopped looking at the numbers and just want people here who interact with me. The rest can go on their merry way. Thank YOU for sticking around. I mean that! Thank you for being my friend!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Oh thank you so much, Amy for your love and encouragement! You just made my day. Yes, Craig is so wonderful and is there for me. I met him in 2005 as I was starting to get better. I am glad that I am assisting you to free yourself. You are doing the same for me. I too growing up hide my true self. It was actually liberating when I let my family go. It came to a climax about 10 yrs ago and I am a better person without them. Thank you for being my friend and cherish our friendship!!!!!! ❤ ❤
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I’m a better person without my family, or rather, most of my family too. I have come to Love my mother who was my childhood abuser and in so doing, freed me in so many ways. My siblings have heavy energy and so sunk in dysfunction that I just will not get involved with them. I have chosen to move on, I have chosen to heal, and I shall continue to do so. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU, KATHY! I know how hard it is to break family patterns. ❤ ❤ ❤
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Yes, freeing is good and glad that you were able to break away, also. I am so PROUD of you !!!! Big Hugs ❤ ❤ ❤
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Great messages here! Thank you so much for sharing, Amy!
Love the photo of you. 🙂 ❤
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You are welcome, Amy. There is actually more then one image of me in this post. I wrote how much I overcome fear each and every day and have revealed the truth about some of my Life as well. ❤
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Fear is not good follower of our life at all. The worst thing which can happen to us is death. Anyway, it will come some day. Why we have to think about that and be afraid of it. Forget about fear and live your every single day as the last one.
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Living my Life, Alexander, fear is very prevalent. Yet it is the choices I make to either succumb to fear or to rise above it choosing LIfe instead, that I face every single day. I choose Life. I deliberately choose it because I know if I chose fear it would swallow me whole and devour me. Many challenges I face every day. This post is only about some of them. I live a very complex, very full Life, and I know that every moment of each day that I choose Love and Life, I become more whole. Much Love ❤
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All of us have carry our own fear through the Life. There is no fearless people. The only difference is how big the influence of it each of us has
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Sorry, Amy. I punch by mistake reply with no end. It happen because I print my reply on iPhone.
I mean how big the influence of fear on each of us.
Anyway, I respect your efforts and courage to defeat it.
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*laughing* Those iPhones are more trouble sometimes. I cannot stand the auto spelling. I don’t know how many times I have to catch something my phone spelled instead of what I did. Totally get it. LOL ❤
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Visiting you from my blog sis Erika’s recommendation. ..
What a post of positivity! May you go from strength to strength! 😊
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Thank you so much, Ritu. I am honored you came to my blog to leave a comment. I am touched. Thank you!!! ❤
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We should all be there for one another to support… that’s what blogily is all about!!!
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wishing you
continued success 🙂
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Thank you, David!!! ❤
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I needed that today. Thank you.
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You are SO welcome, Susan!!! Love you! ❤
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Hugs
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Looking awesome, dear Amy, looking awesome……………… georgie
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George, I left a reply on your blog but it disappeared. God bless you for the reblog!!! ❤
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Welcome to my world. Although in my case, sometimes I just think I did something, but dang sure can’t prove it………………… 👀 ♥ * ͜ * ♥ 👀
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LOL It is those WP fairies again playing tricks. LOL
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Leprechauns at it again. I’m sure it’s bc I installed sprinklers that spray under their mini Kilts
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ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!
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With what you’ve got through in the past, you surely have little reason to fear the future!
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I’ve learned to stare fear down, John. I just will not cave into it. Thank YOU for reading one of my Life Stories. ❤
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Gorgeous girl .. Love the photos! You are inspiring .. Next time I feel fear bubbling .. I shall think of you. Time for me to exercise 😃
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Thank you, Julie!!! Thank you! And what you see is from me gardening, hiking/walking, yoga (once per week), house work, abs worked on and push-ups on living room rug, and let’s not forget my macro photography which is very very challenging as I hold low stances and yoga poses for a long time as I hold my breath waiting waiting for the wind to stop … And that’s it. I honestly don’t do any official exercising except for yoga once a week. I’ve shaped up mostly from hiking extreme hills. And I mean extreme. That will most likely be the subject of my next personal story. The Monster Hill. 🙂 ❤
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Congratulations. You are an inspiration Amy 💛
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Thank YOU so much, Val! ❤
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A very strong and inspiring post Amy. You look amazing.
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Thank you, Raewyn!! What you see is over 20 years worth of self-improvement. Bless you for reading my Story. ❤
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Wow Amy, you are looking so good 😀
I wish you all good luck to continue this healthy way. Fear can destroy all of us, if we allow it to.
You are a very brave woman and I’m proud of calling you my dear friend.
Much love ❤ Irene
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Thank YOU, Irene! Yes fear will destroy any of us IF we allow it to. My husband is a prime example of that. It is so sad to watch someone self-destruct who just will not treat his body and mind and spirit right. Oh he knows how to, but he has this incredible need to be ill. Deep down I think he doesn’t believe he deserves to enjoy to be alive because some of his friends died in Vietnam. I shall continue to seek the courage it takes to pull myself back to Self and to be able to tolerate the heaviness my husband so often exists in. I’ve stopped trying to get him moving … it is now up to him to make that decision on his own, as it always has been. Thanks for listening, dear friend. I am no longer “hinting” but speaking Truth even in the comments. Love you!! ❤
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As you know, I have been there too, so in one way I do also see, what is going on with your husband. It is not easy for him either, but as you say, he needs to take the choice by himself to learn to live again.
Love you too, dear Amy ❤
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Just what I needed today! Thanks Amy!
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You are SO very welcome!!! (((HUGS))) ❤
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So encouraging!
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Thank you, Nico! ❤
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It is said that there are only 2 real elements in life. Love and fear. You are pure love, dear Amy. 💖
Wishing you continued strength. You have moved us all.
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Awhhhhhhh, Van, you have moved me to tears… I was planning on continuing tomorrow to answer comments and visit blogs but I just had to write to you now how much you moved me. I have worked so hard to get where I am today. Not just the physical body but the status of my Heart as well. Bless you, dear friend, for your cherished words. I do not receive much encouragement in “real Life” and to read all these precious words in the comments sections today have me very overwhelmed. Thank you from the bottom of my Heart. I will be over to see you probably tomorrow. I do Love you!! You and others like you are assisting me to free me. That is a story and then some for another day. ❤ ❤ ❤
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Awesome and brave missy! I was reading some of the other comments and I was struck by what you told Dan about being punished by your mom for being the real you. Sometimes it is a hard but so satisfying and healing a journey getting back to the “real” in us. And though my husband doesn’t suffer from all the things yours does, let me just say that his mother was mean and evil incarnate, and it’s nothing short of a minor miracle that he survived in much tact as he did. He can be a very charning man, but he can also be a very difficult man. He has anger issues and rather than confront them he keeps them locked inside and I get to deal with the resulting grumpiness. It also inhibits his ability to be loving and understanding much of the time. But then I expect we all have our stories. Thanks for sharing yours. Can’t wait for the next one. 🙂 ❤
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Oh, Natalie, how my Heart just goes out to you regarding your husband. I understand what it is like to be on the receiving end of “grumpy” and deal with anger issues too. My hubby same as yours has locked himself up so tight inside and just recently I have come to acceptance to stop trying to help him. It’s so hard to watch someone destroy themselves and it is so hard not to have the warmth and Love we women yearn for. You are in my prayers, dear friend. Thank you for trusting me to confide what you said to me. I will take your words and talk to God about them. I hope that through my stories your healing happens of the deep wounds inflicted by another. I also encourage you to write down your stories even if you don’t publish them. Writing what I am is freeing me, Natalie, in ways I cannot even begin to tell you. I wish the same for you! God bless you!!! And thank you for reading my story today!!! Also, if it were not for my childhood, I would not have the “survival skills” I do today in order to deal with the “bucking bronco” when it appears. All things truly work for Good! ❤
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We are survivors for sure but there have been and still are times when hanging in there gets almost overwhelming! ❌⭕️😘
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I know. This is one reason why I hike in the woods just to get away from the heaviness. I know, dear friend. ❤ ❤ ❤
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❤️😘
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You truly an inspiration!! Love these fierce and bold images!! So glad to see you like this 🙂
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Thank YOU, Alifya! Bless you for your comment!!! ❤
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So encouraging and inspiring post! You are strong.
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Thank you, YellowCable!!! ❤
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They say everything begins in the mind with a thought. Strong thought = strong outcome, and you’ve proved it. Lookin’ good, girl! ❤ 🙂
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I totally agree with you, Eliza. Thought is SO important and followed by correct action leads to outright miracles. I really am a miracle … I know it. I haven’t felt this good since before my back injury and even then, I am today mentally and emotionally stronger and very much more ME. All around, I’d say I am one very fortunate woman who has been smart enough to follow her Heart. Much Love, ❤
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❤ ❤
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I hope you continue to grow stronger each day! 🙂
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Thank YOU, Jason!!! I thrilled you saw this post. It means the world to me!!! Bless you! ❤
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What a fantastic, powerful and inspiring post! You are amazing!
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Thank YOU so much!!! ❤
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What an inspiring and uplifting post Amy! I, like so many who have written messages in your comments area wish to congratulate you on your success. May you continue to embrace life with all it’s beauty, wonder, enjoy your wonderful journey and grow from strength to strength. PS: Love your tattoo!!! 🙂 ❤
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Thank you, Milanka, so very very much for this absolutely wonderful comment!! Bless you! My tattoo is my “armband of honor” which I had put on my arm in 2001 after I went through months of detoxing from all the medications a doctor had me on. This tattoo is a reminder of not only what I accomplished but it also reminds me how susceptible I am to addictions. And oh, I have seen some grown men turn green when they have seen my tattoo because they know how much one like that hurts to get done, especially on the underpart of the arm. Oh yes, that baby hurt! No I will not ever get another tattoo. I’m done. 🙂 ❤
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Well, all I can say is congratulations to everything you have achieved. A truly inspiring approach to life and overcoming such a major obstacle. Detoxing and achieving better health. Fabulous!!! The tattoo is a wonderful bonus and reminder. I know how sensitive the underarm area is. Oh the pain!!!! Keep well and achieving wonders throughout your life’s journey! 🙂 ❤
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stay true to yourself- be yourself – express yourself. Absolutely the way to go.
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I agree, Ritva. Being true to oneself is the ONLY way to exist. I am SO glad you understand!!! ❤
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Dear Amy,
Harrison Ford in that movie with the Christ cup choose humbly and wisely.!!!!!!
You have done that (healing with the water of life) and are way up the fear/love energy scale!!!!!(9’s and 10’s)
Remember the excitement, as you go through your moments.
Sending you the energy of peace,,enjoy!!!! ❤
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Dearest Michael, somehow I missed this comment of yours and it is a good thing I double checked this morning. Your words made my mouth drop wide open! Bless you! As we all stare down fear and walk in Love more and more in every aspect of our Lives, do we not then emulate the Christ Energy? If we carefully read Sacred Script, we are told we are here to do that very thing to walk on this earth as Creators. Now that my friend is a very powerful thought one that I just don’t talk about to just “anyone”. As we connect more and more within to those Sacred Sparks of The Eternal Mind, that is who we become, The Eternal Mind/our Higher Selves. That is like putting Niagara Falls into a small human body, so it takes a LONG time, many lifetimes, little by little, drop by drop, in order to achieve our goal. I’ve attained a plateau and I really HOPE I stay here. Years worth of struggle, pain, and darkness I’ve gotten through to be here and I would LOVE to enjoy this. I call this Paradise on Earth. (((HUGS))) Amy ❤
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Well articulated.
We are Gods for sure.
We just are taking so darn long to remember!!!!!
I’m happy you have planted your feet on that higher plateau.
You are worth it of course!!!!
Michael ❤
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yep 🙂
made it 🙂
XXX
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SMILING!!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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You are such a wonderfully courageous and inspiring person, Amy ❤ Thank you for writing this encouraging post – the life path you are hiking has been full on obstacles but you are flying! Much love!
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Thank you, Tiny!!! I suppose if one hasn’t gone through the mine fields of Life, the lush green pastures cannot be fully appreciated. I am SO grateful to be in this place of my Life right now. SO grateful!! ❤ ❤ ❤
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You are a survivor Amy! I know first hand how that feels and how good it feels to shout it to the world! Many can’t see the long road and the enormous change as a result from many many little steps. Life is about learning our lessons and becoming a better person because when we are, the world is a better place around us. BIG HUGS to you my friend!! Ta da!!!!!
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Thank you, Laura! When I began this “journey” I knew not what I could do but I kept on trying. I was such a mess in so many ways yet one by one, I untangled the knots and straightened out the Yarn of my Life. Determined not to fail, I just kept on. SO many stories within stories yet I chose to tell in short form here some of the areas of my Life where I am a survivor. It’s all about perspective and it’s all about frame of Mind as well. When we walk hand in hand with God, all things are truly possible. Have a great weekend, dear friend!! ❤
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You’re so welcome. I love to hear such positive stories!! Thank you and have a great weekend too!!
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THANK YOU!!!! ❤
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This is such an inspiring post, Amy. And your photos are equally inspiring too. You look every bit an athlete in these photos and one who has hiked far and wide. You have come a long way from being in so much physical pain in the past and overcoming your fear of hiking those trails. If you can do it, so can all of us.
I love how you emphatically say do not cave in to fear. I think so long as there are things and people we aren’t familiar with, there will be fear within us. Fear might make us see reality and perhaps coerce us into taking the safe way out. But then again, there is strength and courage who promise so much more and you just showed us that. Fear can cripple us, but with a bit of strength we learn the essence of working for a better tomorrow.
I know this is irrelevant and completely off topic, but I like your outfit in these images ❤
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Mabel, I did not see your comment and it is a good thing I came here this morning to double check. I missed two comments, yours and another one. I don’t know why they did not show in my notifications, either that, or in my busy life right now, I overlooked them.
Thank YOU for these precious words. When we overcome fear we feel so empowered. I have kept active and exercised for most of my life so when I started getting back into shape early this Spring, my muscle memory came into play. Oh yes I worked hard and there were some days I did not know where I was NOT sore. I didn’t know if I was worsening my physical condition or improving it. My guidance kept telling me to keep going so I did. I am just so pleased I encouraged YOU and after reading your post yesterday, you have overcome so much fear in your own Life!!! Good for you!!! I also thank you for the remark about my outfit. I do not follow fashion but dress the way I want to. It’s been a while since I felt confident to wear short shorts. I honestly didn’t think I would again because of the age factor. But here I am, wearing short shorts. In fact I have a couple of pair that are even shorter then these are and yep, I am wearing them. (smile) Hope you are having a great weekend. Much Love, ❤
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I am inclined to think WP is playing up and it’s a kind of bug. There are times when I have missed comments too on my own blog, never seeing them in my notifications but when I check the post some time down the track 😀
It is good to hear you soldering on and listening to your own instincts, and you have come so far. I am sure there will be many more hikes and walks to come for you. There is no turning back now, just moving forward and carrying forward that positive energy.
Wear all the short shorts you like, Amy. You show us how it’s done ❤
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SMILING!!! ❤ (((HUGS))) ❤
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You are Amazing Amy.. And not giving in to Fear so suits you dear friend..
Allowing yourself to believe in your body and grow in strength from ‘within’ your mind-set.. Also heals our bodies .. ( you know I know this journey so well ) and I am so so proud of you, and so you should be too.. You look wonderful..
Keep striding forward knowing always your footsteps are guided along with your inner strength to keep facing Life with NO FEAR..
Love to you my sister..
Hugs Sue xxx ❤ ❤ ❤
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I am proud of me, Sue. I could have given up a long time ago, but I just won’t. I noticed yesterday during my hike that I was coming down heavier with my left leg/foot compared to my right, so I concentrated on getting both of my legs/feet evenly distributed on the ground. Today my right side hurts so bad and I may go visit my Chiropractor. I continue to heal, and sometimes that healing is really painful. As for the fear factor, I have to address that each day. I won’t give in to that either. BE Blessed!!! Love, ❤
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Yes you are strong Amy and I know your Chiropractor will work his magic too.. Keep on keeping on one step at a time.. And the world will sort its self out xx
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Quark Sayz; Yes 2> “NO FEAR” – an 4 U 2
Keep on Keepin’ on! determination & dedication…yes …
eventually does get one to a better place,
namast’e always 2 U an URZ! 🙂 frum da’ …… Q
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