Every day of my Life I defeat fear. Every. Single. Day.
If I allow fear to snatch my mind, seize my stomach, freeze my body I would not live at all. I would be nothing but a lump of flesh, existing and that is pretty much it.
There is so much fear in this world at large today
it is so easy to escape from living
to avoid the madness that is so rampant.
I, for one, refuse to escape
into an existence that does not support real Life.
Upon wakening each and every day, I do not know what lies ahead for that day. None of us do. Caring for special cats from day to day that have many health issues, I never know when those issues will strike. I get up with the Intention all will be well, and I if those issues are seen, I address them in order to maintain equilibrium in all bodies and minds within my cat family. There have been some days that have almost broken me.
Yet, I do not cave into fear.
Before my husband gets out of bed each and every day, I do not know what frame of mind he will be in. Many times I have slipped into fear and my breath gets caught in my throat. When that happens I have to stop what I am doing and consciously get my breath back under control, tell myself I am strong and protected, and I thank God for the Love and the Guidance I am given in order to handle whatever frame of mind my husband is in.
PTSD, Depression, Anger Issues, OCD, Paranoia (the Vietnam war is not over), individually are enough to contend with. When stress is very high my husband freaks with combined symptoms of his issues. It takes much effort on my part not to fall into fear but to remain calm, rational, and a Voice of Authority when need be to get my husband back on even ground. Many times nothing I do or say helps. Attempting to get calm a spooked, wild bronco when stress hits is what comes to mind to describe the “states” my husband falls into. The stressors of Life put him right back in those jungles not knowing if he was going to live on any given day.
But, I do not fall into fear!
In the years 1994 and 1996, I was mostly bed bound from excruciating back and leg pain. Two failed surgeries made a back injury plunge from really bad to horrific. I was also a prescription drug addict taking so many pills that it is truly a miracle I am alive today. Looking back, I just shake my head not understanding how I managed to change my reality from death to Life. If I told you all I experienced, I don’t think you could comprehend much of anything unless you yourself walked in my shoes.
Fast forward today. I chose to not only get out of my bed but to walk away from disability and drug addiction. And I have done it! Presently I am still in the process of improving my physical body but to think of who I was to who I am today … it is truly something to be so very proud of!
The progress I have made has been extraordinary!
Every day I live Life to give my body every chance to heal, and although it has taken years of solid good nutrition, exercise, and not giving up, my body is healing. Today is the strongest I have yet to be since my back injury in 1993 and I plan to keep right on going. I want all of me back and that includes gaining muscle loss and healing nerve damage.
I refuse to allow fear to rob me of the Gift of Healing in my Body.
I face fear every single time I go hiking.
There was a time just last summer I was terrified to hike on the forest trails because I might fall. This year I have thrown caution to the winds and now am hiking those very trails. At first they just about put me six feet under. I did not know where I was not sore! Was I scared? Oh yes but I refused to stop. I just refused to quit!
Today? Those trails are becoming easier. I actually JOGGED uphill recently gaining momentum to get up the steep incline that was before me. Me? Jogging? Are you serious? The same woman who was bed bound and not walking for almost two years?
Here again I did not cave into fear but kept on going.
Friends, I encourage all of you not to give into fear. We all must first begin with our own lives defeating fear before fear can be defeated in this world. It’s amazing once you choose to defeat those things in life that terrify you how empowered you feel.
I am SO alive! I am SO happy to be alive! I am SO strong and healthy! OH FOR THE JOY!!! Will you join me? Will you conquer fear in one aspect of your Life to become strong and healthy? Do this not for me but for you!
If I can do what I am doing today, I know you can too. Remember, I was not walking for almost two years. Go back up and look at my pictures. They speak volumes and yes, this is the real me … no airbrushing.
May encouragement be experienced with this post I wrote for today.
Photographs taken at Chestnut Ridge County Park, NY.
Photography/ “Fear Defeated” 6-2016©AmyRose