Lending me your shoulder
at this time of my Life
I am deeply grateful
to you for.
I Love you!
Flowers are: 1) Campanula ‘Freya’ 2) Mesa Verde Ice Plant
MF Macro Photography Without Tripod/ “Thank YOU” 6-2016©AmyRose
Dear Friends, the tragedies are just not ceasing. Barely able to feel now as it is, numb with grief yet wracked with heart wrenching sadness, two more deaths have occurred since Prinny’s demise.
One of my husband’s Vietnam buddies called here a few evenings ago leaving a barely discernible message on our answering machine. When my husband called him back, he was told this man’s wife had just died. Tears flowed from either end of the phone as his friend talked for hours on end. Two men who do not know how to cry cried like babies.
Then last night. Another phone message this time from another friend of my husband. The news again heart breaking, for this time his friend told us another man we both know had just died. A man with a huge heart who would do just about anything for a friend and family now is gone from this earth.
The insurmountable depths of pain interlaced with numbness, have both my husband and me walking around not exactly knowing what to do or how to act. I’ve begun to get in touch with my tears but there are so many of them, I fear I may drown in them if I allow them all release. I’ve also thrown myself into gardening and planting new plants as a means to keep my sanity. Between that and hiking, I have yet still to shake this numbness with underlying pain that would destroy me if I allow it to.
In these short brief weeks since Prinny is gone, I am seeing my precious cats return to a state of health, and in seeing this, I realize the toll both Molly and Prinny had taken on all of them. We truly are a family and as a family we all feel together the joys and the sorrows.
Please keep my family in your prayers, in your Hearts, and in your thoughts. The One True Light in all this is my cats are regaining happiness and health, and for this, I so do rejoice. If they can do it, so can I. I am not able to speak for my husband, for it is his choice to choose happiness and health, even after all these truly heart breaking tragedies.
No, our Life will not be the same ever again, yet, in order to again choose Life, I will somehow shake this paralyzing frozenness with spears of fire so that I can again feel my Connection to myself, God, and All There Is.
It is my Hope that my honesty regarding my Life will somehow assist you with your Life. Bless all of you for reading my words, for in doing so, you are the means for the validation of my Life.
*Comments will be left open yet again I will not be blogging and probably not answering comments. Friends, I must put me back together again and that will be with the assistance of Mother and the Love of my family.*