The Darkness conceded, “No more.”
And so Lightning struck hard
that dank fetid dark
the ravaging pain revealed
the structure collapsed
and as it finally fell
Light now able to bring
the Essence of Life
where death had once
As a child, I was abused and molested, exposed to behaviors no little girl should ever be exposed to. Never allowed to express my true feelings, nor my anger, or question why I was beaten and betrayed, I slowly became deep within my being a stinking cesspool. I was punished more if I dared to say anything. I learned to stuff those emotions and words down, way down, and as life went on the cesspool remained living a life of its own even though I did not know it even existed.
Decades passed … And during that time I chose to embark upon the Journey of Healing.
A month ago I began to see a Chiropractor and in that span of time I have been adjusted only twice. The first time I was adjusted I came down with a 103ºF fever that lasted three and one half days, the exact day of my first adjustment. Nothing I took, inclusive of Tylenol brought that fever down, only lowering it to 101ºF. I was extremely ill. The moment I coughed up a huge nasty burning green plug from my lungs, the fever abated. In recovering, I for the first time in many years could breathe right.
Before that plug came free, I had developed a bad habit of decreasing my breath, even holding my breath when stress came into my Life. My last blood work showed a higher then normal level of CO2 in my blood. The doctor said nothing about it, but I noticed. I was retaining carbon dioxide because I was not breathing and not only that, my lungs were not functioning correctly. They are today for in the removal of that death from my lungs, my lungs have been given the freedom to breathe again! Yet, if I had not had that adjustment on my mid-back to realign my spine correctly, this would not have even happened!
Second adjustment two weeks later from the first one led to a very painful situation in my personal Life. This happened several days after the second adjustment. Triggering the most powerful emotional release I have ever experienced, this painful situation became a Blessing in Disguise. I broke and I mean I broke! I screamed myself hoarse, I cried so hard I gulped for air, I sobbed so deeply my body convulsed, and the pure rage I felt had me punching dirty laundry as hard as I could wanting to kill someone. I yelled every freaking horrible name in the book I could think of as I punched that laundry imaging certain people who had so inhumanely projected vile violence upon me and my innocence. In a nutshell I went berserk, nuts, loosing every single bit of control. This went on for hours as I was unable to stop even if I wanted to. The torrent was unstoppable! After the storm passed I was completely wiped out for one week completely exhausted and ready oh so ready to call it quits.
This Healing Passage is so tough at times …
In that release, I was given a Gift of Life, for where there was darkness that was blocking me from being totally alive, now there is room for the Light to heal. The words to what you read in my saying above, came to me one morning, the very morning that finally the intolerable pain in my body left. Oh, yes, I didn’t know where I did not hurt after that emotional release, for in that release the emotional baggage that I let go unglued the ugliness that had anchored itself in my physical form. All of our bodies are connected, not only with each other but with All of Life. What effects one body, effects all bodies … mental, emotional, physical, spiritual, global.
This coming Friday on the 11th of March I go again to my Chiropractor with both trepidation and excitement. I know I am on the most incredible Healing Journey of my Life, walking the last leg of a very very long Journey. Yet, what will happen next that will encourage release, or, am I truly truly finished with these earthquakes and now only GOOD and LIGHT will multiply within me?
Friends, I have a huge lump in my throat as I write these closing words. Just how far is this Journey of mine going to go? I am humbled, I am honored, I am in AWE of myself for the exceptional bravery I have displayed to be willing to open myself to the Light in order to set AmyRose free. In totality. In completeness. Have I come full circle to be able to live out the rest of my Life with ALL wounds within healed?
May my words and my story today assist you on your own Life Journey. Peace. Love. Know all is Perfect. And BE Happy.
Before you Love another
firstly Love of Self
must be learned.
MF Macro Photography/ “In The Breaking” 2016©AmyRose