Molly Is Free

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Earlier today, Molly went to the Angels.  She lost her battle with CHF and won Everlasting Life.

As I was going about my morning routine this morning, I heard Molly scream. In running to her I saw her aggressively and desperately licking her left leg.  Not knowing what was going on, I rushed to pick her up and it was in that moment I knew something was very very wrong.

Molly’s back legs were paralyzed.  At the moment she screamed she threw a clot which caused her hind quarters to become paralyzed.  Yelling for my husband to come down from the second floor, I sobbed, “Call our Vet now!  We must take Molly in right now to walk the Path of Mercy.”

We flew into action.  Arrangements were made, we both got dressed, me keeping very close eyes on Molly.  Sobbing, weeping, in shock … but knowing what we had to do I did not look back.  Wrapping her in a towel and her afghan, we flew to our Vet’s office, with me so concerned that the paralysis would move up her spine to her lungs.  Thank God that never happened.

This picture was taken by my husband just after Molly was sedated with a combination pain medication and anxiety medication, comparable to what we humans are given prior to anesthesia.  It was then I picked her up again, holding her ever so close, as I wept and whispered in her ear, “Molly, Love is forever.  It is forever and someday we will again all be together.  I Love you, Baby Girl, with my whole Heart and Soul.”

When the time came to release her to Source, I tilted Molly’s head ever so gently so she could see my eyes as I held her close in my arms, with her head directly next to my Heart.  She looked deep into my eyes with such Complete Love so profound I will never ever forget it.  And as I saw her Spirit fly away, her transition was the most Peaceful, Gentle, Loving Transition I have ever experienced.

Molly is now free of her suffering.

Photography/ “Molly Is Free” 2015©AmyRose

Comments will be open, yet I will not be answering them.  I do not know when I will be back to WP.

213 thoughts on “Molly Is Free

  1. Oh, Molly. I am grateful that your ordeal is over, but I know you will be missed for a very long time. If you get a chance, look up our beloved Baby Doll and tell her for me that I miss her still. Send some angels to comfort your humans.

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  2. I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of Molly. I know Molly meant a lot to you, from your blog posts and beautiful images of Molly captured by you. Wishing you strength and peace in mind during the grieving moments ❤ ❤

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  3. The picture of you an Molly is a picture of complete love. I cried when I read about her departure, and I know how much you are missing her. Many hugs and much love, Tiny

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  4. Pardon me while I weep a bit.
    This brings back painful memories, but then, how could it not? I’m so glad you were Molly’s mama, and that you sent her to The Rainbow Bridge with love everlasting. What a gift she was. ❤ I'm glad her suffering has ended.
    Your photo is poignant and I am so sorry. My condolences for your great loss.

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      1. I know, Joey. I’ve been saying of late, once my cat family is on the Other Side, no more. This is just too hard on my Heart. That is the time when I will throw myself into the books I know I will be writing and so much more to fill the gaping holes. ❤

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  5. Just checking up on you to see how you’re doing. Broken hearts are a terrible thing. When love leaves we are often left cold and shivering where the furry warmth once was…held tight in our arms. I’m thinking about you and your husband. Molly too.

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    1. Gigi, you are the first person I have responded to since Molly’s passing. Yes my Heart is broken in so many pieces I don’t know if it will be possible to put it back together again. My other cats are taking this extremely hard and need me near them. I had a total of 8 cats on my bed last night. Can you imagine? Some are not eating. Some are barely moving. I must help them get through this. I may begin to post with comments closed, just to keep my sanity. I’m going slow, my friend. I am unable to read a book right now, just watching movies not even really knowing what I am watching. Perhaps if I turn once again to my camera for healing, that is the direction I should go. Bless you for checking in on me. I have learned through this that I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for right here on WP. I am so overwhelmed by the outpouring of Love. I Love you, Gigi. Just know I will get through this. I just have to figure out how. (((HUGS))) Amy ❤

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      1. I wish there was something I could do to help you but you know there isn’t. I think our hearts look like swiss cheese , the older we get, the more holes, because we have to give parts of our heart to all our loves when they go. I have a shred left but I’d rather give my heart to them, than keep it for myself, because really, without them, what good is a heart anyway. Saying Molly is in a better place still leaves you without her. I never understand sayings like that. A chunk of your life is gone. Might as well face that so you can heal, rather than try and just plug up the hole with sayings. You have to live and be better for the others. They will look to you for how they are supposed to feel. I had to do that when our son died and when my husband died. I had to be okay or my daughter wouldn’t have been. When all my cats died, I had to be okay for the other cats and for my husband. Makes me tired but loving the ones who were still here made me work to be okay so they could feel better. Just know that I feel for you and that I’m thinking about you. Do whatever you have to do for yourself and your family of cats. That’s all that matters. Animals are so sensitive to our feelings. They are sad not only for Molly leaving but for your broken heart. I think this is what they mean when they say Love Hurts. it does. ❤

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      2. I really LOVE you, Gigi. I get what you say and I mean really get it. There are times I don’t know how much more my Heart can take. Yet the Love I still have even though it is from a Heart like swiss cheese, is still there. I must go on for the sake of those who see me as “Mom”. For their sake I will make the super human effort of taking my camera and begin walking the Healing Path. You are right about cliches, Gigi, and at a time like this, they are stupid. For those people who say you know Love is forever …. yes, I know this, I KNOW, yet has that person ever gone through loosing someone you Love so much that you would die in their place if you could? You would take their sickness if you could? I doubt it. A huge part of me is gone along with Molly. For 6 years she was ill and I never missed a dose of her meds, and I was always there for her. I constantly observed her and tried to figure out how best to keep her stable. I Loved her and spent time with her. I am so exhausted there are times I think I may pass out.
        Tomorrow I promise to take my camera (depending on the weather) to start the healing process. And it is because of YOU I have to thank. YOU have been through more hell so you know what I feel right now and how hard it is to get back to living. Bless you! I shall never forget this connection today and tonight. Thank you from the bottom of my Heart. ❤ ❤ ❤

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      3. I knew I had your book. I’m looking all over the place for it. It’s on kindle. I’m going to try to see if I can read. I haven’t been able to up to now. I feel it very important for me to read your book. In fact I have both of them. Love you, Gigi.

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  6. You can’t talk to people who won’t listen. You have a husband and a family of cats who actually do need you, will listen and who are there for you, so your allegiance definitely should be to them. The thing is…I figured out that I had to be okay for my daughter, who NEEDED me to be okay, so that she could be okay. (I thought I was doing a good job of fooling her but she knew I wasn’t really okay…I did try though). You need to be okay for your cats, even more than for your husband because you can TALK to him. The cats are attached to you emotionally and through your energy and your despair will fill them. So take your time, grieve and do what you have to do and then, when you’re ready, you can be strong for the babies you have left because they love and depend on you to be okay. They always know how you feel and THEY are your REAL family, unlike the people you are genetically tied to…the cats and your husband ARE love. The other people are just other people. It’s good that know that so you don’t have to pretend that “family,” that means something when it doesn’t. You just have to look around you to see who’s important and who loves you the way you need to be loved. ❤ I'm so happy to see that you might start taking pictures again. We never forget our furry loves, not ever. They are perfection and that's something to be remembered. I truly hope my book helps you. It helped me and it's funny. Much love to you, your lovely husband and your beautiful cats.

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    1. Gigi, in speaking with you, you have helped me in more ways then I can explain. I am now determined to pull myself together for the sake of MY family and ME. This is where I have been accepted for ME, here and WP. I also know my strong Will to Live. To fill the huge piece of the pie that was known as Molly and Me, I again turn to my camera to pour my Heart into and also to attempt to act normally for the sake of my family. I have one cat, Prinny, who needs ear surgery for a growth in her right ear. I must really concentrate here in order to know when to schedule that surgery. Prinny is taking Molly’s death hard, and to subject her to a surgery right now is out of the question, yet this surgery cannot be put off indefinitely. Bless you, my friend, for helping me getting my head back on straight. Now I go on as I figure out how to rearrange my life so that gaping hole where once was Molly and Me is filled with Beauty.
      Much Love, my friend. Much Love to you!! (((HUGS))) Amy ❤

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      1. I hope all your babies feel better soon and that the surgery can be scheduled. It’s difficult to have furry ones because they are so much a part of us that it’s almost impossible to let them go. They aren’t like kids who grow up and move on, they are always in our arms and on our laps and right there with us. You’ll be okay, eventually, never the same, but okay. AllI I did Amy, was talk to you as one cat person to another. I hope today is better than yesterday for you and those you love. ❤

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  7. I’m so, so sorry to read of your loss. I know the pain and devastation of losing a furbaby. My heart goes out to you. Molly was so blessed to have you and you are blessed to have had her. And still have her love. ❤ I'm happy you got to share that last loving moment together.

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  8. I’ve been thinking and I really think my book will help you Amy. You already have it so try to read it because there are cats involved and I think it just might be what you need right now. Up to you, just wanted to let you know. Hope today is better than yesterday. ❤

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  9. So very, very sorry to hear about this Amy. Some of the greatest emotions and feelings we will ever experience will come from our pets, a love so very difficult to understand. There are words that I just read that while feeling the sorry of your heart lets me know that you are doing well ~ “Dawn’s gentle glow, brings to birth, Light on Earth.” – those are beautiful words of yours Amy. Take care.

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    1. Thank you, Randall. I’m really not OK yet I must pull myself together for the sake of those who need me to be the hub of the wheel. I don’t know if you can understand, but this situation is even more painful then loosing my Dad. I’m doing all I can to put the pieces of my broken Life back together again. ❤

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  10. My dear Amy, I am so sorry I wasn’t here sooner… I haven’t had the chance to visit until now…I am so sorry to hear about Molly but glad that she is no longer suffering…I can’t imagine the ache you feel in your heart, a place that no one can fill but your precious memories with Molly…You are a terrific mother and your love and compassion has shone through in all that you have done over the past few months…My heartfelt condolences and love to you my friend ❤ Big hugs

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    1. Neha, what is important to me that you are here now. Bless you for your comment and showing your support. I’m doing my best to jump back into Life for my sake and the sake of all those who still depend on me. Thank you. Love, Amy ❤

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  11. We are all together as one, so we are never separated. That is why we all feel your loss and shed tears for your separation with Molly. Calming love to touch you my sister, in love.
    Take time to breath in divinity, so kindness touches your souls.
    Peace Be with you constantly!!!!

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  12. This made me tearful to read. I know what it is to love cats deeply and the pain of losing them. I send you and your husband much positive thought. What is beautiful and enduring is that you were there with Molly all the way through her transition and that she left this earthly plane having been hugely loved and cared for. Warm wishes, Sam

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    1. Thank you, Sam, ever so much. I was with Molly almost every day (except when my Dad passed) for the 6 years she was ill. Towards the end it was almost constant care yet she would not give me the sign she had enough. Truthfully I was waffling the last 2 weeks of her life because of her obvious struggle to breathe and I am just so grateful that the decision to walk the Mercy Path was made for me. That final decision is incredibly difficult, one I do not take lightly. Bless you for your thoughtfulness. (((HUGS))) Amy ❤

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  13. Oh Amy……… I am weeping with you.. She is indeed Free… so sorry after all the battling you have done with her.. So Soooo much love your way. I so so know your pain. xxx Love Sue x ❤

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  14. Sweet Amy, I am sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. What a gift you gave her, keeping her in the comfort of your loving embrace throughout her passage. After giving her a richly loved life, the perfect exit. We can all only hope for such grace. Peace and love.
    Kathryn

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  15. So very sorry to hear of your loss of Molly, it is so hard to lose our fur family. We lost our gorgeous Ziggy, a wonderful, energetic but cowardly little dog, back in June, he just faded and died quietly at my husband’s feet. I still miss him badly, he was so kind and loving. Big hugs to you, been there, know how you feel, My Darling xxxx

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    1. We all here are adjusting, Chris. Some days are better then others. I just feel so exhausted after taking care of her for so long and extreme intensely at the end. I just feel so lost some days. I am forcing myself to do things. And of course there are so many others who rely on me for their well being. Bless you for your concern. Love, Amy ❤

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    1. I am really focused of late not so much on the loss of Molly but the fact she no longer labors to breathe. Don’t get me wrong, for there are times I close my eyes in anguish with missing her so much! I am also cherishing my other special Angels, for one day as well, they will be with Molly. Every moment of every day is precious!!! Love, Amy ❤

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      1. I have an exact scenario right now with my Karma who is 16 and who I have had since he was 6 weeks old. It is so difficult to watch him slowly go down hill. I understand totally. Much Love! ❤ ❤ ❤

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  16. Tears….. From the bottom of my heart…dear……this photo is really heartbreaking……………….as my kid was fighting with pneumonia I couldn’t get time to visit wp…. So today im happened to see this pic…tears pooling my eyes now….. Im so sorry dear….

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    1. Sneha, the picture you just saw is heartbreaking. It clearly shows how much I Love her and how difficult it was to say goodbye. I am glad for her because she suffered so much, especially at the end. I know one day we will be reunited but for now I am helping a lot of Molly’s sisters and brothers still to this day to get through the grieving process. Molly was the main Queen, and so many of my babies right now are lost.
      Thank you for your heartfelt compassion. You helped me so much, my friend. She was just too sick to get well.
      (((HUGS))) Amy ❤

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      1. Amy… May our shepperd care and carry u through all painful situations and difficult tymes….still that photo haunting me so deeply…my motherly heart weeping with u …bcz it clearly shows … I cant imagine … Me too have a kid .. So much heartbreaking…see she is safe in the hands of god…miles to go before we sleep amy

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      2. What so many do not understand is this … A Mother’s Love is the same whether for a child or a beloved cat. No one can imagine the agony of what I walked through. I did it out of LOVE for Molly. No longer would I allow her to suffer especially after the stroke that left her rear and bladder paralyzed. Some day, in a blink of an eye, our Loved Ones will be with us again. Until that day, I must live LIFE for those who are still with me, treasuring them each day until the day arrives that again I must say goodbye for only a little while. Mother Nature has helped immensely and in fact I am headed for my LONG walk now in a forest where my soul can soar with Molly. I Love you, Sneha. Tears and (((HUGS))) Amy ❤

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      3. Sending my love and prayers…on ur way….to give u little bit comfort to that big mamma heart…u r right……ur pure love can see molly and she is watching over u …dnt shed tears dear bcz she loves to see her mammas smiling face…if im down with fever or headache my kid start crying… Bcz she loves that much … Every loving soul like to see smiles….. So smile please… Our molly is safe in the lap of almighty…. So u smile please….up up up dnt get worried…..so many loving hearts praying for you……life is all about love dear…. And that is eternal no matter where we r….live for her…..happily live for her .. U r not alone dear……love u so much
        ((((Hugs))))
        Sneha

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      4. Life is about LOVE, Sneha, you are exactly right. The more of us who live that concept the more this world will change into that concept …. LOVE. Sending my Love to you, (((HUGS))) Amy ❤

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