When Life looks bleak
seemingly without Hope
do not stop seeking answers
and as you do
know that you just may stumble upon
something of great significance
which will then in turn
shed Magnificent Light on what seemed to be
a Hopeless situation …
Thereby transforming what once was deemed
into something no longer void of Hope.
Friends, I have not been on WP for a reason. I have been fighting for my Molly’s Life. I now have her in somewhat of a stable condition, yet she is still not completely out of the woods. She is my precious baby suffering from Congestive Heart Failure for the past 5 years. In managing to get her to a place in order to take her to our Vet yesterday, I brought her in to be examined and for blood work to be drawn.
There I received a punch to the solar plexus. One of the medications Molly needs in order to stay alive, is now beginning to put her into renal (kidney) failure. You really do not want my opinion of western medicine who thinks and believes that these drugs that are given to “heal” have side effects that harm and kill.
Is this, I ask you, a “healing art”?
So now I have asked for help from an Ayurvedic Doctor in India to give me alternatives to (one), manage Molly’s dis-ease to give her the quality of what Life span she has remaining, and (two), how to either stop or reverse the kidney damage that has already been done. To know Molly will die from renal failure puts a real ugly feeling in the pit of my stomach.
For years my husband and I have searched far and wide on how best to help Molly in combining alternative means with her traditional medications. And now to know that the medication I have been giving Molly to maintain her breathing is slowly going to kill her, again, you do not want to know my thoughts on that.
I am leaving comments open. I cannot promise I will answer your comments, though. My priority right now is focused on Molly and I also have a crew of men coming this day to redo our drainage ditch that was grossly butchered the first time they did it. I have blueprints to make sure the job is done correctly this time.
And oh, hubby is not here while all this has been going on. He is on a fishing trip with his brother so far north in Canada, his cell phone does not have a signal. I have chosen not to call him on the emergency number he left (at the Lodge he is staying at) about what is happening with Molly and with the fact these men are coming today to redo our ditch. Knowing my husband, he would freak and what little time he has left of this trip, would be ruined.
I have faith that I can hold everything together until he returns.
In closing, I miss all of you something fierce. I have to figure out how best to treat Molly to get her breathing less labored and to assist her kidneys to stop from failing. On top of that, I have to put my engineering hat on today to make sure these men do the job right this time around. Sometimes it takes a woman to get the job done and done right. (wink)
I will leave you with something that happened to me on Monday that I believe will have you laughing. The supervisor of this crew that is coming today, came out Monday morning to assess and record what has to be done. When I went over to talk to him, he turned to me and said, “Good morning, Sir.”
Now, friends, I was dressed in my slinky, black, very tight, Lycra YOGA outfit that left NO doubt in one’s mind that I am really a woman! So, my wise mouth got the better of me and out of my mouth I responded, “Um, the last time I checked I was most definitely not a Sir!” and as I said this I looked down at my chest bringing my right hand up to feel my chest to make sure, that what was attached to my chest, were still there. Now that is my Gift of Laughter to you this day!! Just picture it!!! I’m laughing as I write this! To say the least, this supervisor was embarrassed. I just laughed and continued talking as if nothing happened.
May all of you have a really wonderful day and know I carry you with me in my Heart.
MF Macro Photography/ “When Life Looks Bleak” 2015©AmyRose