I’ve been asking a lot of questions both of late and for the past couple of years. Today I have answers which of course came quietly to me while I was just doing my ordinary set of actions I do every morning. I seek and I ask why and I don’t stop until I get answers no matter how tough the going gets. And usually the answer comes when I’m not even “thinking” about the question.
I received a two-fold answer this morning. The first half of the answer has everything to do with the post I published yesterday [HERE]. The answer is simple, which I have found through experience, is usually the case. I was questioning why we even exist in this realm called Planet Earth.
My answer came … We are all here to remember who we are. We are a Spark of Pure Love. Our memory of that has been snipped in order for us to “blindly” find our way back to our True Essence. Perhaps we decided to do this because we became bored in spirit form. I don’t know.
Between our conditioning and the ways of this world and unknowingly adding darkness to our Spark which dims Its brilliance, we struggle along the Life Path we ourselves have chosen to find the “markers” which are to assist us to remember who we are. We who are Seekers to find Truth peel back one by one the layers of darkness we ourselves and others have applied to hide our Light. And as we do we get ever closer to our True Essence … that of Love.
So this our Purpose … to remember that we are Love.
The second half of the answer came quietly as it floated gently into my consciousness. I have been asking for years why my Mother acted the way she did while I was a child. This answer came in stages over some years. Firstly, understanding came when I knew, because of her difficult life, she shut down her Heart. My own life experiences gave me that answer. Yet despite my difficult life, I chose not to shut down my Heart.
Then last evening after contemplating a comment left by one of you on my post of yesterday, the Truth came to me which my Heart recognized immediately as being Truth. For years there has been a family rumor that my Mother suffered from Bi-Polar Depression. She was never treated for this illness. You have to remember we are talking about a generation that did not readily embrace mental illness (the present time still does not) and things of this nature just were not talked about.
With this two-fold answer came a great sigh within. How is it even possible to have anything but Love for a woman who struggled alone with the upbringing of so many children, while she herself lived as a woman within a nightmare and with a mental disorder? Not possible. And it would also explain why I have struggled with depression all of my life.
Friends, I was taught to hide things that make you squirm, to run from those things that you don’t understand, and not to face resolution with situations that hurt. I am doing something so bizarre, so over the top of what I learned as a child to do, that I conclude I must be one very brave soul to show all of you a part of me that not too many would be willing to show.
If I don’t walk my talk that makes me a hypocrite. If I don’t stay True to myself that makes me dishonor myself, the Spark of Love that I am. And if I don’t live my life openly and truthfully that proves I am just compounding the mistruths I was taught as a child.
Again this fits in with the Purpose of my Life, that is to remember who I am, a beautiful Spark of Love. And with that remembering, I am being True to myself. I also live by example that no matter the circumstances in my past, it is possible to rise above those circumstances to return to Love. If I am doing it, then so can you.
Comments will be closed. I have so many comments yet to answer from yesterday’s post. Because you are coming along with me on this very Challenging Journey, you I willingly share my answers I receive in order for you to have the understanding I have been given. This I call friendship. This I call Love. And this I call Living according to Truth.
MF Macro Photography Handheld/ “Truth”/ October 2017©AmyRose
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